"Were you afraid I'd steal your blanket again? Not anymore." She vacated half the bed for her and smiled.
"Sister, will you give me anything I like?"
Song Qing thought for a moment before saying, "As long as it's not something Dad asked me to do, I can let you have it."
Song Ning grinned and clung to her, pouting, "Then, sister, can you give me Brother Xu Nan?"
"No!" She instinctively pushed her away.
"Why?!"
"I'm going to marry Xunan after I graduate," she replied without hesitation.
“You have your father’s company, why are you competing with me for Xu Nan? I met him first,” Song Ning said loudly.
"But he likes me. We've been together for three years, and soon we can be together."
“No way. Xu Kai told me that Xunan would be unhappy with you, that people would think he’s relying on you, and that you don’t have time for him. Whenever Dad asks you to do something, you’re always the first one to run to him. You don’t love Xunan at all.”
“That’s not the same thing. Dad is Dad.”
"So what? In your heart, Dad is more important than Xunan."
"Of course, don't you think so too?"
Song Ning nodded heavily. "In my heart, Xu Nan is everything to me. I've thought so for a long time!"
"In short, you're not allowed to think like that. Xunan is mine."
"You're so greedy!" Song Ning sobbed and ran away with the blanket.
*
"Xunan, go and talk to Xiaoning, don't let her overthink things." Song Qing told Yan Xunan about what happened that night.
Yan Xunan smiled in surprise, thought for a moment, and then said, "I think what she said is right. Although it's a bit childish, don't you think what she said is worth thinking about?"
She didn't think there was anything to ponder deeply.
Life goes on as usual.
But it still happened.
Young Song Ning wrote a suicide note and then cut her wrists to end her life.
Song Qing never knew that she had always resented Song Jingmo's favoritism and frankly admitted that she was very desperate about life and the future. Since childhood, she had never been able to compete with Song Qing for anything, so naturally no one would make a decision about Yan Xunan's matter.
The whole family was stunned. When had Song Ning ever been with Yan Xunan?
Does she have delusions?
Song Qing rushed to the Yan family home immediately. It was pouring rain that day. Yan Xunan came down with an umbrella and hurriedly asked what happened.
In the pouring rain, Song Qing asked him, "Has Xiao Ning been spending a lot of time with you lately?"
Yan Xunan tried to drag her back into the house, but she refused, stubbornly standing in the rain, demanding an answer from him.
He was a little angry too. "So what if she is? She's way cuter than you!"
But today, Song Qing could not tolerate his temper.
Why did you do this?!
"I feel relaxed when I'm with her! But it's not what you think! I don't want you to be distracted every time we're together, with your mind filled with the things your father told you!"
"Why can't you understand me!" Song Qing collapsed onto the ground in the rain, on the verge of a breakdown.
It seems that as we grow up, all sorts of worries come rushing in one by one, and no one can escape them.
When he was with Song Ning, he only wanted to provoke Song Qing, but it seemed that he didn't get her to care much more.
"If only you were like Xiao Ning." He refused to admit defeat, but held up his umbrella to shield her from some of the rain. Since things had come to this point, he was determined to turn their unequal relationship around.
He was already able to foresee what their future would look like.
"I understand." Song Qing ran home.
Song Ning was eventually saved, and no one mentioned her suicide note again.
But Song Qing thought about many things. At fifteen, she felt tired for the first time and felt that she was in the biggest predicament of her life.
She always thought Song Ning was happy, but little did she know that the sisters were just envious of each other.
The atmosphere at home grew increasingly tense, and it seemed as if a heavy barrier separated her from Yan Xunan, a barrier she couldn't seem to cross.
The once stable family suddenly became unbalanced.
A chance phone call from her aunt gave her a sudden insight: if she couldn't solve her current predicament, she could at least forge a new path.
The private school is light and the private school is heavy
Qing'er, don't leave me. I just want to share your burdens. I'm just a little too much of a chauvinist. I can't let go of my pride, and I'm even a little insecure, afraid that you'll be stronger than me. I'm also petty and jealous. I don't want you to have anything to do with Yan Xunan anymore, I don't want you to take over Hongshang, and I don't want you to struggle.
- Yi Zhengwei
Song Qing had not returned for several days, causing great concern among the Yi and Song families, especially Yi Mantian.