Fortunately, after graduating from university, the original owner finally broke free from this relationship. But she was too ashamed to go back, so she rented a house alone in an urban village in the city center.
This was the most significant period in the original owner's life.
Author's Note:
Oh no, it's getting later and later while I'm writing this. I need to adjust the surface time. _(:з」∠)_
Chapter 118
With a sigh, Cheng Qing placed the diary on the bedside table. There was only one diary left in the box, but in reality, judging from the timeline, the original owner should have worked for about four years after graduation.
Based on her previous diary-writing progress, she should still have at least four diaries left.
But in those four years, she only wrote one diary.
In fact, Cheng Qing understood his mindset.
The person I most wanted to write about in my diary after the heartbreak and physical pain in a relationship has already broken up with me. Looking at it this way, it seems there's no need to continue writing in the diary.
Cheng Qing checked the time and it was almost four o'clock. He decided to read the last diary, and then glanced at the girl sleeping soundly in his arms, her brows still furrowed.
Cheng Qing chuckled and kissed her on the corner of her lips, then gently placed her on the bed and pulled the thin blanket next to her over her.
Cheng Qing then sat up, leaned against the headboard, took a sip of her coffee, and, rousing herself, picked up the last diary.
Perhaps it was a psychological illusion, but she always felt that this diary seemed heavier than the previous ones.
Cheng Qing thought that if the days ahead were even more unbearable for the original owner, it would probably be because days without hope are meaningless!
Turning to the first page, the first two words that catch the eye are indeed "Mingyue".
"It's been half a year since Mingyue left. I've entered the workforce and live in the city closest to home, but I don't dare go back to see my family. I know I've disappointed them, so I hope I can live a good life."
"May my life get better and better, and one day I'll be able to stand before my family again."
Cheng Qing breathed a sigh of relief and didn't say anything more about Ming Yue. Otherwise, she wouldn't have been able to bear it either.
After that, I wrote in my diary every few days, or even only once a month.
Because she had nothing much to do, like any other young person entering society, she mingled in various circles, working diligently like a regular employee. She didn't achieve what she claimed, and later, due to her personality, she was among the first to be laid off when the company downsized.
After that, due to societal pressure and disappointment in herself, she chose to set up a stall in the center of the square. Life was tough, but she lived like this for several years.
Up to this point, Mingyue was not mentioned again in the diary. If there were any expressions of longing, they were mostly about missing family.
Just as she herself said, she no longer cared about Mingyue.
Cheng Qing saw the name Mingyue again in the latter half of the diary.
"Today, I received a call from a high school classmate. I heard there's a class reunion at the beginning of the year, and they invited me. Will I be able to see her that day? Mingyue, I miss you a little."
"Sigh." Cheng Qing stood up. According to the information she had heard from Ming Yue and her best friend Lin Lan, the original owner of this body would definitely be attending this class reunion.
As expected, the original owner of the body in the diary, though restless, had no intention of going. In order to forget Mingyue, she had never thought of her all these years, and didn't even dare to write her name in the diary.
But as the date of the gathering approached, Mingyue called her one day.
"Mingyue said she missed me and hoped to see me. I was overjoyed. Even after so many years, my love for her had only deepened in my heart. I took out all my savings and bought beautiful clothes and shoes, wanting to show her my best self. Of course, I also bought Mingyue a set of cosmetics, which wasn't cheap for me, as a gift."
Even though I hadn't wanted to see her before, all my defenses crumbled when she said those words. I look forward to this day, just as I've always looked forward to seeing you.
When Cheng Qing saw this, her heart sank. She felt both anger at the original owner's lack of ambition and worry that her expectations were about to be destroyed.
However, upon seeing the last line of text on this page, Cheng Qing was somewhat moved.
"Although I was very happy, I still chose not to get a haircut despite having made all the preparations. Even though I knew we would meet soon, I couldn't smile. At this moment, I was more grateful that I hadn't gone home yet."
Maybe she knows everything!
Cheng Qing thought to herself, the original owner wasn't unaware of this, yet she still went ahead without hesitation. That first meeting in high school, which was the most beautiful time for the original owner, now seemed to be nothing short of the beginning of misfortune.
Watching her, knowing full well that it wouldn't end well, yet still rushing headlong into the fire like a moth to a flame, made me realize that the vivid memories I once found in her diary now seemed tinged with black and white.
It's like offering a heartfelt tribute to the original owner of the body, only to receive no response.
Although Cheng Qing knew that everything was the original owner's own will, how could Ming Yue trample on someone who truly loved her like this?
If you can't respond, why hurt her?
Even though Cheng Qing couldn't understand the original owner's feelings for Ming Yue, he still sympathized with her love and was even more worried that this love would eventually become a laughing stock.
That day was definitely not a good one; she had already realized this when she talked to Mingyue. That day was incredibly embarrassing for the original owner of this body.
But perhaps more damaging than the embarrassment is the loss of Mingyue's heart.
The diary had several blank pages in the middle, with only the date and weather written on them, but no other content.
Cheng Qing glanced at the date she wrote; it was probably at the beginning of that year. In other words, the few pages she didn't write were perhaps written on the day of the class reunion.
The events of that day left her with only the strength to write down the date and the weather. She may have been too distressed to write anything, yet she didn't want to forget that day. That's why there are a few blank pages in her diary.
A few days later, the original owner of the body wrote down the events of that day in a way that reminded her of the past.
That day, the original owner changed into an expensive dress and leather shoes, but her long hair was still draped over her shoulders, and her thick bangs still covered her eyes.
She was excited about the day they would meet, and she pictured Mingyue in various ways in her mind, imagining the first words they would say to each other when they met again.
Filled with four years of longing and anticipation, the original owner opened the door to the private room. She then saw a room full of classmates and heard one of them shout, "She really came!"
"Ha ha ha ha."
Amidst the piercing sound, through the bangs in front of his eyes, the original owner saw the woman he had longed for day and night. Unlike himself, she was even more alluring and beautiful after graduation, and poised and elegant.
Yes, she is still the moon in the sky, radiating a cool moonlight, as if she can only be admired from afar and not touched.
Ignoring everyone else, the original owner of this body held the gift in her hand and smiled at her.
Sitting behind the large round table, Mingyue smiled at the original owner of this body. Just like back then, when the original owner knelt in front of her, her smile was as radiant as a flower.
At this moment, my lifeless heart began to beat again.
That night, Mingyue's girlfriend also came. Same-sex marriage has been legal for two years now, meaning even same-sex couples can openly appear together in various settings.
That night, they all made a bet: would Cheng Qing still show up at the party?
The original owner didn't know who won or lost, but they got drunk later. So, they made another bet: if Mingyue's girlfriend proposed, would Cheng Qing still propose?
Mingyue's girlfriend thought it was impossible, but after seeing someone propose to Mingyue, the original owner of the body still went up and proposed to her.
Because Lin Lan told the original owner: Who do you think can truly bring Yueyue happiness in this world? Shouldn't it be the person who loves Yueyue the most?
The original owner knew that no one loved Mingyue more than herself. She was urging her to propose, but after some thought, she agreed.
Was the original owner of this body stupid? Extremely stupid.
But she's so foolish it's heartbreaking.
She knelt down to propose, not unaware of the outcome. But she knew that if she didn't take this gamble, she would regret it for the rest of her life.
Everyone in the private room burst into laughter, including Mingyue, who had shown her tenderness, and she covered her mouth and laughed so hard she fell into her lover's arms.
The original body, who was kneeling there, looked up at Mingyue's bright smile and smiled back, promising, "I will wait for you."
Everyone laughed even louder. A toad trying to eat swan meat—utterly lacking self-awareness.
From the very beginning, these people just wanted to bring her here to play with her. Like teasing a monkey, to tease the original owner of this body.
The original owner of this body may have been foolish, but she was also decisive. It wasn't that she couldn't feel sadness, it's just... she was already deeply hurt.
When you experience a certain pain too often, you become numb to it. As a fencer, Cheng Qing understands this feeling all too well.
In the original owner's diary, she tried very hard to beautify Mingyue's various behaviors, but Cheng Qing still felt Mingyue's evil from it.
The entire piece is long and depressing, with the last diary entry detailing the class reunion. Every detail is meticulously recorded, leaving nothing out, demonstrating the significant harm this reunion inflicted on her.
However, at the end of the diary, the original owner still gave the best ending.
After reading through several diaries, the person who had been feeling depressed suddenly smiled with relief.
—Mingyue, I don't regret meeting you. These years we've known each other are still my most beautiful memories. Although these memories have been filled with more pain than joy, I'm still willing to accept them. I will wait for you for five years.
Because I know that it will take at least five years to truly forget you. My heart is filled with you; what right do I have to like anyone else?
But Mingyue, forgive me for still feeling this way at this moment...
If only we had never met, we wouldn't have this deep-seated longing. Longing without a future is the real, bone-deep pain.
Here, Cheng Qing realized that at this moment, the original owner of this body had truly let go of this relationship. Because Ming Yue had accepted his girlfriend's marriage proposal, for the original owner, the relationship had come to an end.
But what Cheng Qing found even more remarkable was...
—You gave me the most beautiful tenderness in the world at that moment, and I have deeply felt that tenderness and understand how rare it is. Therefore, I will strive to become such a person.
As the ending of a diary, this brings a sense of relief and makes one smile knowingly.
rare.
What's most remarkable is that, despite the deep emotional wounds she suffered in this relationship, the original owner never blamed anyone. In fact, she was able to maintain a positive outlook on life.
From beginning to end, she was always open and honest.
I've finished watching it.
Cheng Qing stood up and sighed. She reached out and touched the cover of the diary, feeling a pang of regret for the original owner of this body for the first time: She was a good person! What a pity!
The dawn light on the horizon was already casting some shadows, and the room, which had been dark, now had a source of light to keep it from being completely dark.
Cheng Qing got up, glanced at Luo Xi on the bed, then looked out onto the balcony, and chuckled speechlessly: "We can't let her climb back up again."
If they're definitely going to be photographed, then so be it. Fortunately, although neither of them explicitly stated it, it was clear that it was consensual.
Cheng Qing looked at Luo Xi, who was still fast asleep, and chuckled: "Will our CP fans get their wish?"
Losi was fast asleep and didn't pay any attention to her. Cheng Qing got up and went to the bathroom to wash up, feeling bored.
The room was dimly lit, with no lights on. By the faint light of dawn, one could see that the bathroom was small.
Against the wall is a pristine white bathtub, separated from the toilet by a glass sliding door. Next to the door is a luxurious washbasin.
Cheng Qing's belongings were simple, unlike Luo Xi's pile of skincare products on her vanity. Cheng Qing only had a face wash and toner/lotion in front of the mirror by the sink. Even the bottle of serum and eye cream were gifts Luo Xi insisted on giving her when they were filming at the villa.
After staying up all night, her complexion naturally wasn't good. Cheng Qing used facial cleanser to wash away the oil that had accumulated overnight, then lowered her head, closed her eyes, and rinsed her face again and again with the warm water from the tap.
Her long hair fell down on both sides, some of it getting wet from the water on the edge of the basin.