My First Husband After Transmigration

Chapter 110

"If you don't avenge your grudges, what have you been trying to do all these years?" The faint voice seemed to be a murmur to itself, yet every word struck my heart.

I cannot answer. (3D)

For over twenty years, ever since I promised my adoptive father that I would not seek revenge, I have tried my best not to think about what happened that night. I have been managing my family business, composing poems and painting, traveling through mountains and rivers, and drinking and chatting with two friends. I thought that this was how my life would go by, but I never thought about this question.

Why were we born?

What am I living for? To live a peaceful life as the young master of Nangong Villa, helping the poor and weak, and laughing and joking about life? In fact, isn't that how many people in this world live their lives?

But I am different from them.

That night, I dreamed again of the sky ablaze with fire, of my father, and of my mother…

I couldn't let him go on the risk alone. Perhaps he already knew I would agree. Since he didn't know why he was born, being schemed against by his own brother was better than being schemed against by others.

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"I'm glad you're here to help me," he said, showing no surprise whatsoever, and simply smiled. "If you really want to protect me, how many people are you willing to sacrifice?"

Innocent people.

Why must there be so much killing in the world? A strong sense of sorrow welled up inside me. This plan was not perfect. I must not pity others, or I will kill them.

Why was I born? Perhaps only for revenge.

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A girl fell from the sky.

She was young, dressed in strange clothes, and spoke incomprehensible words. She was surprisingly bold when she saw men, but became terribly timid when she heard about the dead. Her every move was unlike that of a young woman. She clearly had nowhere to go, yet she acted completely indifferent, showing no trace of the pitiful state one would expect.

What girl wouldn't cry and feel sad if she suddenly ended up like this? I almost suspect she had ulterior motives.

But she's really not good at lying.

Just as she said, she had no relatives or friends, just like I did back then. It seems this girl doesn't know how terrible it is to be helpless and alone. Perhaps it's better if she never does.

No one could have imagined that a constable and a murderer would work together to solve a case. Actually, it's not bad. With them around, the journey isn't lonely, especially with that interesting girl along the way.

She told me to call her Xiao Nian.

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It was my younger brother who saved Hei Shilang, but he didn't know it. I decided to let him go, though. He was Li You's friend, and if things continued, something unavoidable would happen.

In the world of martial arts, aren't there always many things we have no choice but to do?

They trusted me so much, believing I was framed, yet I still chose to betray them. It's a sad thing, isn't it? Did Tang Jingfeng and Liu Ru feel the same guilt when they betrayed their fathers?

Xiao Nian actually came to comfort me.

This girl followed us all the way, and she wasn't too annoying. She wasn't as delicate as ordinary girls, and she was very open-minded. Sometimes she didn't even seem like a girl at all. She always liked to pat Li You on the shoulder to make bets and bicker. She even made up a set of "three obediences and four virtues" for men.

What did she see?

I only breathed a sigh of relief after I was sure she was just afraid I would feel sad or guilty. She's a silly girl; it's best not to let her get involved in these things. I'm not as good as she thinks.

To my surprise, she told me sadly that she had been abandoned by her friends when she was in danger.

Women have friends? I found it both funny and surprising. Young girls are mostly pampered by their parents and confined to their rooms. When they occasionally get together, it's just for competitions, jokes, and little tantrums. After they get married, they obey their husbands and rarely have any contact with each other. How could they know anything about loyalty, trust, or betrayal among friends?

She really knew. (36)

By the way, she's not from here. People from her area would sue their husbands for taking a concubine. Thinking about this, I couldn't help but laugh again. Which of these things are true and which are false?

No one feels good about doing something to wrong their friend, so it's best not to disappoint her.

She was very forgiving and quickly recovered from her sadness. That evening, she even brought me a plate of strange snacks, saying she wanted to wish me a happy birthday.

Happy birthday? She actually remembered that.

cake?

The dessert had a peculiar name, but it didn't taste very good. In my twenty-odd years of life, I've never eaten anything worse. Seeing that her face was flushed with nervousness, it turned out to be her first time making it. No wonder Li You and He Bi were silent. Naturally, I couldn't refuse her.

I ate the cake as slowly as possible, and I found it quite amusing. If she were to do this for my birthday every year, I'd rather not do it anymore.

What about the future? Suddenly snapping back to reality, why am I thinking about these things! Could it be that I've already considered her a friend?

To be friends with a woman.

Seeing her relieved and happy expression, I suddenly realized that the cake wasn't actually that bad.

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Xiao Nian's parents had already separated and were divorced.

"...To support each other or to forget each other, which do you think makes more sense?"

I felt quite embarrassed, as she was the only one who would talk so openly about love and romance with a man. I never imagined that this girl, who always seemed so carefree, was actually lonely and had so many worries on her mind.

To cherish each other, or to forget each other?

Suddenly, I remembered Aunt Bai—no, I should call her Aunt Ye now. She loved my father so much back then, and was even willing to become his concubine. Yet, in the end, she married Uncle Tang the second year after my father's passing. And my father, already married to my mother, still wanted to take another woman.

Isn't it incredibly easy to forget matters of love and romance?

She drew a cartoon rabbit. Although it wasn't very realistic, it was very cute and playful, just like herself. The lines were simple, and you could remember it at a glance. I specially drew it and gave it to her, but I found that she had ulterior motives. What a girl!

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"She has nothing to do with this."

"You can't bear to part with it?"

"She will always be our friend."

Even I know that this excuse is utterly ridiculous.

He laughed, "I never imagined that my brother would make friends with a woman."

"There was no need to kill her."

He didn't listen to me and still poisoned her. Seeing that the mischievous girl, who had been talking to Li You about "love of beauty" during the day, was now lifeless and on the verge of death by night, I felt a strange pain in my heart. In the end, he came out in time to detoxify her; otherwise, I might have really gone to find him.

Am I really being too nervous?

Afterwards, Xiao Nian's courage did not decrease but instead grew. She even started joking with me, leaving me speechless. This girl is talking nonsense. Will she never be able to get married?

"Isn't there you? If you can't get married, you can come and torment me!"

She smiled and said, "Didn't you say I'm great? Besides, having such a handsome, rich, and gentle husband, wouldn't it be so prestigious and prestigious to take him out? (13)"

"Shameless!" I glared at her, annoyed, but for the first time in my life, I felt a little flutter in my heart. Perhaps this really is good, if none of this had happened...

A chill ran through me.

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Finally, one day, she put on Li You's hairpin.

It's actually heartbreaking. (32)

That's fine, that's fine. I can't give her anything, so I don't have to think about it anymore. Isn't it easy to forget these things?

However, the younger brother killed Jianghu Yao.

She was very ill and seemed to be having nightmares. The emotions conveyed in her expression were very familiar because I had experienced them myself—the despair and fear of losing a loved one.

I hesitated.

Li You is a friend. Besides, if I leave now, my brother will have no reason to stay with them. He is determined to avenge his brother, so how could he give up halfway?

Without a second thought, the younger brother attacked Tang Jingfeng's daughter.

She's gone too!

Had he already made a move on her? It was late at night, and I had searched almost the entire garden before finally finding her in a corner. The dew was heavy; she was sitting on the ground, lost in thought, wearing only thin clothes. A sudden pang of pain shot through my heart. She wasn't like an ordinary girl, delicate and fragile, but she was still just a woman, and when she was heartbroken, she couldn't take care of herself.

She wanted to leave.

Her tone was light, but it was heartbreaking to hear. With no relatives or friends around, where could she go?

Perhaps this is truly my chance to turn back. I don't need revenge; I can live peacefully like everyone else because I need to take care of her. From now on, neither of us will be lonely anymore.

More than twenty years ago, Uncle Tang betrayed his friends for a woman; more than twenty years later, I did the same thing, betraying my friends, my brothers, and my parents, and it was still for a woman.

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My younger brother thought he had everything figured out, but he never knew another secret: I could also wield a sword. That sword would never hurt me, but letting that person live would kill him; ultimately, I was the one who wronged him first.

I killed someone.

It's alright, it's alright. From now on, I'll never have to worry about these things again. I'm going to take her home, and all I need to do for the rest of my life is to build our home together...

That's what I thought back then.

However, I came back.

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I opened my eyes, and everything was as before, as if I had just had a dream.

It turns out that I was never given a chance from beginning to end, but I only realized it now. How ridiculous! He refused to give up his revenge and would never allow anything to go wrong halfway through.

She brought me back.

Our home? That home...

That's fine too.

Perhaps, I survived only to end all of this.

It's time to end this.

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The wine was slowly poured into the glass, very slowly, but my brother's hand began to tremble. He had seen through my intention to end it all. I only hoped that he would understand that he would not give up his life.

The old man in front of me makes one sigh. He has been carrying such a big secret in his heart, a secret that concerns the life and death of his entire family. I imagine he has been restless and unable to eat for many years.

Ordinary pitiful.

Li You should be coming back soon; he's a smart man.

Seeing my former enemy raise a glass, I felt a pang of pity. My brother was right; I wasn't ruthless enough, which is why he schemed against me from beginning to end. But I can't blame him. He witnessed Mother's tragic fate; how could he easily forgive and forget?

Li You has returned, just as I expected.