Classroom 407 - Chapter 10
[Month] [Day]
He loves me. He still cares for me and is considerate of me.
Thinking back to my doubts about him a few days ago, I feel a little ashamed.
That guy became the student council president. But that's none of my business anymore.
[Date]
I was terrified today. I saw something familiar in Xu's smile. I pushed him away and ran away.
I hope I'm mistaken.
[Month] [Day]
I want to make something of myself. I want to show that guy I'm not just a girl who only knows how to be romantic and carefree.
I need to pull myself together. Xu is encouraging me; he loves me.
[Date]
Another spring has arrived. Is there anything I can change? I feel like I can't leave him. Is this a good thing or a bad thing?
I do not understand.
He was with me in the afternoon. Everything was fine.
[Month] [Day]
I did it! I did it!
Now I'm starting afresh, and I'll show that guy what I'm made of!
[Date]
Xu's whereabouts are a bit mysterious. Why isn't he answering my calls?
I don't want to doubt him anymore, yet I can't help but doubt him.
Perhaps it's just old wounds lingering.
[Month] [Day]
He's not as gentle with me as he used to be.
Something must be wrong. A bad feeling.
However, today's social activities were very successful, which is some consolation.
[Month] [Day]
I saw it all. He was lying to me too.
Although he came to comfort me and swore it was just an accident, I didn't want to believe him.
Are all men the same?
[Month] [Day]
Maybe he meant it. He was very gentle today.
what do I do?
The newspaper's reporters and editors are all very nice.
[Month] [Day]
He's still lying to me. I saw it again, but I don't want to talk about it anymore. He didn't see me.
I will never trust anyone again. The world is meant to be dark.
[Date]
Although today's event had a significant impact, I'm still very sad. This sadness has nothing to do with anything else. I wish I had met Ding first. He was probably sad too.
[Date]
He wanted me again, and I didn't refuse.
When I told him I wanted to be the student council president, the same look appeared in his eyes as that guy.
My heart is completely broken, and no one can save it.
[Date]
Teacher Li is a different kind of person from them. What he said was very pertinent.
But I hate them, I want revenge. I want to destroy them.
[Date]
Teacher Li has promised to help me try my best. This person's smile is very reassuring.
Unfortunately, I have nothing left.
[Month] [Day]
I saw Xu with another girl. His smile looked awkward when he saw me.
His best efforts to explain couldn't make up for anything; I will never trust him again.
He is my pawn, and I must win. I must abandon everything.
[Month] [Day]
Teacher Li is a good person; he seems to have been through a lot.
Maybe there really are good people in this world?
Probably not.
[Month] [Day]
I failed. That guy stood there swaggering around, and I didn't want to look at him again.
I know it wasn't my fault, but I'm still incredibly frustrated. I was going to beat him, to crush him.
[Month] [Day]
Another scumbag. I'm in so much pain, but I never imagined my body would betray my will.
Am I truly beyond redemption? I despise myself. I am a useless person, a despicable person.
[Month] [Day]
It's the same thing again. I need to get rid of all this.
His eyes and breathing were like those of a wild beast, wanting to devour me and spit out the bones.
[Month] [Day]
No matter who tries to comfort me, it's useless.
[Month] [Day]
I don't know whether I got rid of him or he got rid of me.
I find his smile disgusting and filthy.
And I am filthy too. I can't wash away the filth, I hate it, I hate all of this.
[Month] [Day]
I don't want to go home. I didn't attend the class reunion last year, and this year I don't even have the courage to see them.
I lost my whole world.
[Month] [Day]
Life at home is lonely. My heart feels even colder.
My body burns at night, and I hate it all.
[Month] [Day]
Liu came to see me when no one was home today. I captivated him.
But he didn't seem to care. He even said he'd liked me since high school. He's not a liar. Why didn't I notice?
I actually feel a little satisfied. I'm such a shameless person.
[Month] [Day]
In my eyes, Liu was ridiculously naive. He said he would always be good to me.
It's fine to just listen to it and forget about it. But having someone like that by your side, a simple life might not be such a luxury.
My hometown is still the same, seemingly never to change.
[Month] [Day]
My head hurts a lot today. I vomited for no reason when I woke up this morning.
That's strange, maybe I haven't been getting enough rest lately.
What's the point of staying in this school? I don't understand. Living like a walking corpse?
[Month] [Day]
The test strip was like a judgment.
[Month] [Day]
Guo Yingying saw me vomiting this morning. She was very worried.
But I don't want to say anything. It's pointless anyway; no one in this world will help me.
[Month] [Day]
I told Liu, but he said he had no money, but he would try to find a way.
But I'm not even willing to think of a solution. If he can't, I can.
[Month] [Day]
As I expected, he said he really couldn't do anything about it.
I know what he's thinking, but he hasn't considered whether I can accept these things.