The Mandarin Duck Swords of that time, and the soft swords and longswords of today, will all become indispensable memories for me.
Wu Shang, how I wished those who died were me back then! But I couldn't bear to part with you, I really couldn't bear to part with you... When you saw that blood, I was scared, so I still took you out with me.
When the Heart-Eating Gu affliction flared up and I sank to the bottom of that lake, how I wished I could just die like that. But why, Wu Shang, were you so foolish as to jump into that icy lake to save me?
I'll tell you to live well, and I'll just slowly disappear.
My Wushang, why did you personally go to beg the King of the Western Regions? And you even tested the poison on yourself, cleverly having Hong Feicuiwu bring back the antidote, yet you stayed by the King of the Western Regions' side!
Why did I still lose you? Is fate truly destined to continue like this? You became the Queen of the Western Regions, manipulated by him, your demonic nature awakened, you became the Demon Lord, my enemy…
I must kill the King of the Western Regions!
Yes, I think I can definitely kill him!
You wanted to fight me. Finally, that day came; finally, you left me…
Wu Shang, I dreamt that you died by my sword! How could I kill you?
My promise to Minho... If I die, I will have him take my place and take care of you. He is a man who loves you deeply. His marriage to Miss Gao Fengfen was also part of our plan. I know he has never been with another woman, because he is waiting for you.
I know he loves you deeply, and his kindness to you is no less than mine. He can absolutely take good care of you and love you in my place.
Wu Shang, when I first wrote this letter, I was in a secret room, thinking and writing a little bit every day. Now, I am in my tent.
Tomorrow, you will fight me to the death. Tomorrow, everything will end. Tomorrow, I will no longer write a single letter.
You...are having a baby, is it mine or...his?
Ji Wushang sobbed, "That's yours, yours! Nan Xuzong, that's your child, I'm carrying your child! Waaah..."
"It doesn't really matter anymore. I know it's your child. Wushang, do you know how long I've been waiting for this day? When I heard you sing 'Ten Miles of Red Makeup' on that flower boat, I promised to be with you for ten lifetimes. My life cannot be without you."
This is my child! Wu Shang, please treat our child well. Even though I can no longer hold you, my soul will linger by your side, watching over you and the baby, and wishing you a long and happy life together.
No sorrow, no sorrow...
Wu Shang, can you hear my call?
I love you, I will always love you. We made a promise to love each other in the next life, and never forget this life.
But here I am, I've changed my mind.
Can you forget me? Then, live a good life again. I hope you are happy.
What I love is your pure and happy smile;
What I love is your shallow, curved dimples;
What I love is you being beneath me, entwined with me;
What I love is having meals with you, sitting on my lap, and playing with you;
What I like is that you draw all sorts of patterns on my face;
Wu Shang, I like you, I love you.
I choose to use my undying heart to remove the curse from your heart, to dispel your demonic nature… That is my final way of loving you. You will become an ordinary person, and then… give birth to our baby.
I can no longer pamper you, Wushang. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I can't be by your side.
I longed for a baby so much back then because I thought that if I died, he would be a boy who could protect you, and if he was a girl, he would be a comforting and caring companion.
You said you couldn't have children because of your health, and you wanted me to take a concubine... My Wushang, my heart belongs to you. How could I be like those worldly people, marrying women I don't love for my own selfish desires?
Wu Shang, you're pregnant... and still on the battlefield, how can I not worry? Day and night I stand in front of your tent, gazing at it, hoping you can feel that I'm watching you, worrying about you, and loving you as always.
Wu Shang, can you feel my heart?
"Waaah..." Ji Wushang covered her face, sobbing, her tears already soaking the letter in front of her. There was more to this letter.
"When fate chose one of us to die first, Wu Shang, please forgive my selfishness... I could not bear the grief of your departure, so I chose for you to live... But I hope you live well."
My heart has always been with you.
Wu Shang, please forgive me for not being able to spend the rest of my life with you.
I once thought I could fight against the heavens and defy fate. Even if we hadn't completed ten lifetimes of cultivation, I would never let go of any moment I spent with you! But now, it seems that the outcome is already set in stone.
After I die, do not grieve. Life is nothing more than joy and sorrow, separation and reunion, the waxing and waning of the moon. If you take things lightly, they will seem like fleeting clouds.
It might be painful at first, but as time goes on, you'll slowly forget our vows, forget our marriage, forget everything we once had, forget the days I existed, forget that I loved you, forget that you loved me...
You will slowly begin your life, and slowly find happiness...
No sorrow, no sorrow...
Wu Shang, after you read this letter, burn it at my grave, and then... forget me too.
Minho will take care of my affairs after I'm gone. He's a good man, a good brother to me. I'm entrusting you to him; he will take good care of you in my place...
Minho will love you very much. He will definitely give you the most beautiful happiness and bring you wonderful memories. Or, in the future, you will have his child... Don't worry, I will ask him to treat our child well.
Wu Shang, my Wu Shang.
We... made a promise to forget this life in the next!
The last sentence.
We made a pact to forget this life in the next one.
hehe!
Ji Wushang clutched the letter tightly in his hand. It was incredibly long—over ten pages! Was he planning to reveal everything?
"Cong, I will never forget this life... I promise you, even in the next life, I will not forget this life!" She looked at the tombstone in front of the grave, "Waaah... You once said that you would take care of me for the rest of your life and stay with me forever, but now, you broke your promise! You pushed me to someone else, don't you love me anymore?"
Cong, do you remember what I once said?
I said, "If you die, I will go with you!" Ji Wushang stared blankly at Nan Xuzong's tombstone. She stepped forward and gently stroked the three characters "Huangfuzong" on his tombstone.
This is truly his name! Huangfu Zong, courtesy name Zongzheng, given name Xuzong.
A sense of desolation welled up in Ji Wushang's heart. This man who loved her to the bone was now lying in that cold earth, separated from her by life and death!
“Cong…” She hugged the erected tombstone, and suddenly she laughed. The laughter carried far and wide, making people feel sad and bring tears to their eyes!
Bei Gongminhao kept watch from a distance. With his restored martial arts skills, he could hear her intermittent sobs and her words. His heart felt like it was being ripped apart. In the end... he had always been a substitute beauty!
All I ever thought about was staying by Ji Wushang's side. Yes, I would appear when she needed me and disappear when she didn't... Haha, that's just the kind of person I am!
Beigong Minhao's eyes were glazed over, and tears welled up in his eyes. He quickly turned his face away so that others wouldn't see, and hurriedly wiped away his tears.
“Cong, you won’t be too lonely, so I’ll come down and keep you company! What’s the point of living without you? I don’t want to live without you… You know I’m in pain, so why are you so cruel as to leave me all alone? Cong, you haven’t gone far, wait for me…”
As Ji Wushang spoke, he was about to crash into Nan Xuzong's tombstone!
Bei Gongminhao was terrified. He leaped over to Ji Wushang and hugged her tightly. "Fourth Imperial Consort, what are you doing!"
"Me? Let me go! How dare you!" Ji Wushang glared at Beigong Minhao with resentment. "Let me go!"
"I won't let you go! If you try anything foolish, I, Bei Gong Minhao, will absolutely not allow it!" He looked at her, his eyes filled with resentment. Yes, he loved her deeply too! But she had always only felt gratitude towards him, without a trace of romantic feeling!
Sometimes her heart is as cold as a thousand-year-old ice cellar, and I can never get into her heart... Tears fell from Beigong Minhao's eyes.
Ji Wushang was stunned for a moment, then looked at Beigong Minhao with tearful eyes, "Why, why can't you let me die? Do you think it's meaningful for me to live like this? Do you think I can live happily? I've lost everything by losing him!"
“You…you still have me…” Bei Gongminhao looked at her, “my friend…” His tears fell onto Ji Wushang’s hand, and Ji Wushang’s heart trembled. Yes, he had always been silently protecting her from behind, but her heart belonged to Nan Xuzong, and it was Nan Xuzong who had saved it… In this life, she could not accept anyone else!
"I, Ji Wushang, was born a member of the Huangfu clan, and I will die a ghost of the Huangfu clan." She looked at Beigong Minhao, pulled her hand away, and pushed him away. "Your Highness, I'm sorry!" She knelt down before him. "I, Ji Wushang, can never repay your help in this lifetime. Please accept my kowtow!" As she spoke, she immediately kowtowed, the force of which was so powerful!
Beigong Minhao was taken aback for a moment, then immediately stepped forward to help her up, "You, please get up quickly!"
"However, please, Your Highness, do not interfere with Wu Shang's life any longer. Wu Shang thanks you again!" She lowered her eyes, completely ignoring Bei Gong Minhao's words, and immediately kowtowed to Bei Gong Minhao again.
Bei Gongminhao abruptly pulled Ji Wushang to her feet. "What are you doing? You're pregnant, you can't kneel for long! Yes, even if you're rejecting my concern, but! Ji Wushang, you still have your baby, you still have Nan Xuzong's child! His only wish is for you to raise the child and live a good life! I, Bei Gongminhao, will protect you! I will continue to protect you, protecting you from afar! This is my promise to Nan Xuzong! If you tell me not to interfere in your life, then you must live a good life!"
Ignoring the servants around, Bei Gongminhao roared out his fury, a fury he had never felt before! He was furious that Ji Wushang didn't know how to take care of himself! Didn't cherish him! Had let down Nan Xuzong, and had also betrayed his own good intentions!
But she could see her own pain!
But she also had a child in her arms... that was the child Nan Xuzong had been looking forward to most in his life.
Ji Wushang was stunned by his words. She quietly pushed away Bei Gongminhao's pull, and only then did Bei Gongminhao realize that he might have gone too far, and he even yelled at her...
He stood behind her, "...Fourth Imperial Consort...I'm sorry, I...I shouldn't have..."
“You’re right,” Ji Wushang said calmly, kneeling again before Nan Xuzong’s tombstone. “I will live well, for the sake of his child.”
Beigong Minhao and the servants around him breathed a sigh of relief upon hearing this.
The wind was surprisingly cold.
After escorting Ji Wushang back to the Prince's Mansion and instructing Hongfei and Cuiwu to take good care of Ji Wushang, Beigong Minhao left alone.
There was no one in the courtyard.
Beigong Minhao's face was expressionless, but he was deep in thought when he suddenly gave a bitter smile.
"Nan Xuzong, do you already know her feelings? In life, she's yours; in death, she's yours. How can I possibly enter her heart? Yes, I love her, but she will always be yours, whether in the past, present, or future. I cannot replace you! I can take care of her, but only in the name of friends and brothers... Heh!"
Bei Gongminhao shook his head. He noticed a jar of wine in the pavilion. Perhaps some lazy servant had secretly placed it there, since not many people came to the pavilion!
Beigong Minhao, holding the jar of wine in one hand, leaped up and landed directly on the top of the pavilion. He lay down and looked at the sky.
"Honestly, Nan Xuzong, I hate you, I hate you so much! I hate that you took her away from me! I hate you. With your skills, you should have known that I had already sneaked into your secret room that night, but you actually went so far as to drug her and deliberately let me see you two making love... Isn't that right? You just wanted me to hate you, to take her away from me... Nan Xuzong, do you really think I wouldn't dare to take her away from you? Heh, or do you really think I'm really willing to just silently watch over you from behind?"
"Divorce papers, forget-me-not potion—you've prepared them all! Since that's the case, then I'll do all of this for you, how about it? Nan Xuzong, what do you take me for? What am I?"
"She loves you so much, I can never compare to you or replace you, Nan Xuzong, what's the use of this letter of divorce? She will always be your wife, she would rather be your ghost than my wife, tell me, what good is there for me to do?"
Bei Gongminhao took a sip of wine, then set the jar aside. He took out a letter from his pocket, pulled out the paper inside, and sneered, "A letter of divorce, heh heh!" Bei Gongminhao raised the letter of divorce in his hand, "You divorce her, and then send her back to General Ji's mansion, and I go to marry her? Do you think she'd be willing to marry me? You're really... too cruel!" Bei Gongminhao smiled bitterly, picked up the jar of wine, and then gulped it down his throat.
He drank until his clothes were soaked with alcohol before finally putting the book down. Immediately, he grabbed the letter of divorce and tore it to shreds! He then tossed it towards the sky!
"She'd rather die than marry anyone!" Bei Gongminhao laughed wildly, tears streaming down his face! "Nan Xuzong, you, you're really funny, so funny! Ridiculous, this is just too ridiculous! Haha, haha!"
The servants around watched from afar as Beigong Minhao laughed loudly atop the pavilion, completely bewildered. Beigong Minhao, however, instantly turned cold and said, "Get out!"
The servants immediately withdrew.
Bei Gongminhao's gaze returned, and he took out the Forget-Me-Not Water from his pocket. He really wanted to drink it himself! Would Ji Wushang drink this Forget-Me-Not Water?
"She won't drink your Forget-Me-Not potion... She said she made a promise with you that even in the next life, she wouldn't forget this one... I'm so jealous! Nan Xuzong, what kind of magic do you possess that makes her love you so madly?" Bei Gongmin laughed wildly as he opened the Forget-Me-Not potion, the red liquid swirling in front of his eyes.
"Yes, I could make her forget everything, and then... we could start over, but she wouldn't be perfect... Xu Cong, I can't do it. I love her, I love her so much, but only you can give her happiness... And me, haha, Xu Cong, oh Xu Cong..." Bei Gongminhao smiled bitterly, tears streaming down his face. He raised his hand, and the red liquid immediately drew a red arc in the air before falling to the ground and disappearing instantly, drying up.
In the warm spring of March, when the weather is still chilly, it is most difficult to find peace and comfort.