but.
Too close.
The proximity made Shen Yebai eager to kiss Qin Moyu.
Chapter 51 Hate and Love If I could, I would only want to…
But Shen Yebai ultimately didn't kiss him.
It wasn't because there wasn't a chance, but because Qin Moyu murmured with a sob in her voice, "Don't go..."
This shout melted Shen Yebai's heart, and he could only coax softly, "I won't go... I won't go..."
Qin Moyu was caught in a nightmare. She didn't know what she was dreaming about, but she couldn't help but shed tears in her dream. She let go of Shen Yebai's hand and curled herself up into a ball.
Now, even though Shen Yebai can walk, he refuses to.
The bed in the guest room was already quite large, and with Qin Moyu curled up in a ball, Shen Yebai easily stepped over Qin Moyu and got onto the bed, holding the little dumpling named Qin Moyu in his arms.
As they drew closer, Qin Moyu's unique scent, mixed with the aroma of wine, gradually calmed Shen Yebai's chaotic mind.
In fact, since he was separated from Qin Moyu, he is not much older than Qin Moyu. Shen Mo had often said that Shen Yebai had a unique temperament that he had when he was young.
Arrogance, emotionalism, and fearless ignorance.
These are all things that Shen Mo once possessed but lost in the process of growing up, which Shen Yebai rediscovered through his interactions with Qin Moyu.
Of course, although Shen Mo misses his past self, he still feels that he is better now, able to rationally devise schemes and, to some extent, cold-blooded and ruthless.
Shen Yebai patted Qin Moyu's back gently, stroking his long hair. He loved Qin Moyu's long hair. Every time he combed Qin Moyu's hair, he would think of the saying that circulated among ordinary people.
— One comb to the end, two combs to the white hair reaching the eyebrows, three combs to the ground with children and grandchildren.
Having a house full of children and grandchildren is unrealistic, and he doesn't want those little brats to attract Qin Moyu's attention, but having white hair and eyebrows is indeed a beautiful vision.
People whose cultivation reaches a certain level will have their appearance stabilize at a certain point in time, until the moment of their death when their hair turns white and their beauty fades away.
If Shen Yebai and Qin Moyu can grow old together with their hair reaching the same height, it means that even at the last moment of their lives, they will be by each other's side.
"If I could, I would only want to be with you," Shen Yebai whispered, holding Qin Moyu and closing his eyes.
For Shen Yebai, Qin Moyu represented all the joys and sorrows of his "life".
So before he heads to the uncertain Lake of Solitary Hearts, let him hold his beloved in his arms a little longer.
Soul separation literally means separating a part of the soul from the original body.
Of the three souls and seven spirits, Shen Mo separated out the one soul and one spirit that he considered the most useless, the one that governed emotions.
…………
Shen Yebai quietly left before Qin Moyu woke up.
So when Qin Moyu opened her eyes in bed, she was still a little dazed. She couldn't remember when she entered the room at all. She covered her throbbing forehead and realized that not only could she not remember when she entered the room, but she also couldn't remember anything that happened after she drank.
I only vaguely remember a white expanse, and the dream that followed.
In his dream, his master told him that he was leaving, and he cried and begged his master not to leave. He couldn't remember any other beings.
Qin Moyu returned to the courtyard, put the wine jar back into her storage bag, and noticed voices outside.
Listening closely, it seemed they were discussing Mo Yuan's plan to enter the forbidden area of Lishan.
The disciples of Chenmen couldn't understand why they were letting outsiders into the forbidden area, and why they agreed so quickly; it was as if Chenmen was afraid of the other party.
Qin Moyu didn't know what the forbidden area represented in the Chenmen, but he learned from the disciples' discussions that Mo Yuan would be entering the forbidden area in half an hour.
—I must go with them.
The words flashed through Qin Moyu's mind. She had decided to wait for Mo Yuan to finish his business and listen to his explanation before drinking, but now she couldn't wait to get the answer.
Mo Jin was called away by his master to do some work, so he asked his disciple to tell Qin Moyu. However, the disciple knocked on the door several times but no one answered, so he left.
So now when Qin Moyu goes out, all he sees are Chenmen disciples dressed in the same clothes. Everyone looks the same to him, and he has no idea how to contact Mo Jin.
Wait... that one around the corner looks like...
Qin Moyu saw someone waving at her from the corner, and upon closer inspection, she realized it was the woman who was with Mo Yuan.
Is she calling me over?
Qin Moyu walked over with doubts in her heart.
Zuo Shu was standing directly opposite the courtyard where Qin Moyu was, as if she was waiting for Qin Moyu to come out.
"Is there something you need, young lady?"
Qin Moyu asked in a fairly polite manner.
His matter with Mo Yuan should be kept separate; there's no need to target her with sarcastic remarks.
“Of course.” Zuo Shu smiled. “I came here specifically to bring you, young master, to Lishan.”
Qin Moyu was silent for a moment before asking, "What does he mean?"
"No, it was my idea that I took it upon myself." Unexpectedly, Zuo Shu shook her head.