“From that moment on, I knew there was no going back.”
“Before becoming the head of the family, I killed my own people; after becoming the head of the family, I killed my enemies. I knew it was wrong, but I couldn’t stop.”
"Because if you stop, you will die."
"Those who commit this 'torture' can only dream of retiring from the criminal world. Because when you lose your glory and retreat behind the scenes, all your enemies will swarm in and leave you with no place to bury your body."
"Living like an ordinary person is a luxury."
"Before I met you, I never thought there was anything wrong with my lifestyle."
"After all, I am stronger than everyone else, including those who once scorned me."
Now they don't even have the right to lick my shoes. When they see me, they're like mice seeing a cat, trembling with fear.
Their fear and respect for me greatly satisfied my vanity.
This would numb my senses and prevent me from recalling that humiliating and disgusting memory from my childhood.
"But until I met you."
As Shen Yu said this, he couldn't help but smile: "You are the first person to treat me so well, and the only person I can completely trust to entrust my back to."
“You are different from everyone else in the industry. You are kinder than I thought, even a little silly.”
I gave you countless chances to kill me, but you didn't use any of them.
"You're too gentle with me..."
Shen Yu pursed his lips, a slight reddening appearing at the corners of his eyes. He said, "Later I thought, how wonderful it would be if I were an ordinary person, to meet you as an ordinary person, to fall in love with you, and to live an ordinary life together. I don't ask for great wealth or status, I only ask for peace and safety."
"But in the end, that gunshot still woke me up."
"He told me that since I embarked on this path, while enjoying those vanities and riches, I would never have peace for the rest of my life."
“So, I was prepared all along.” Shen Yu kissed Yu Tang’s hand, his smile frank: “To die in your hands is the most perfect ending I could have in this awful and stinking life.”
Yu Tang stared at him blankly.
Then a surge of anger welled up inside her, and she instinctively gripped Shen Yu's hand tightly, retorting, "What do you mean by a terrible and disgusting life?! Is that how you've always seen yourself?"
"Isn't that so?" Shen Yu found his outburst of anger somewhat strange, and smiled at him: "Yu Tang, you're in the Han family, you should have heard about what I've done, right? And didn't you see it on the ship?"
"I sell arms, run casinos, and help my superiors get rid of their enemies. I also have dozens of lives on my hands."
Once evidence is obtained and the person is imprisoned, it's a death sentence.
Even if you can forgive me, can the deceased forgive me? Can the law forgive me?
"Tangtang, I know very well that I don't deserve to live."
The only reason you're speaking up for me now is because I haven't used those same tactics on you.
If you were a victim, or a victim's family member, you would only...
He covered his eyes and said, almost word by word, "I wish I were dead."
"So you don't need to feel guilty about the tasks you did."
He leaned against the car window, his fingers covering Yu Tang's hand, and said, "Because I am not innocent."
For a long time afterward, until the car stopped outside the villa, the two did not speak again.
Because Yu Tang simply didn't know what to say.
He wanted to say that he hoped Shen Yu wouldn't underestimate himself, and that he hoped Shen Yu would work with him to find a solution so that they could live a good life for the rest of their lives.
But he couldn't bring himself to speak.
The reason is that Shen Yu is too clear-headed.
After learning his identity, Shen Yu had already decided on the ending for the two of them.
He was aware of his status as a bad person.
She was fully aware that her sins were unforgivable. So she wanted to use him to end the rest of her life.
He simply couldn't bring himself to say to Shen Yu, "Since you knew you were wrong, why did you do it in the first place?"
Because he knew that if Shen Yu hadn't done that, he wouldn't have survived to this day, and wouldn't have been able to meet him.
Shen Yu wanted more than anyone else to live an ordinary life as a normal person. But that was ultimately just an unrealistic dream.
It's a fantasy that can never be realized.
"Your slippers are here." After entering the room, Shen Yu opened the shoe cabinet and took out a pair of shoes wrapped in a sterile bag.
He squatted down and personally took out the slippers and placed them at Yu Tang's feet: "They've been worn for three years, so they might look a bit old. If you don't like them, I'll have someone buy you a new pair."
Yu Tang couldn't bear to throw away anything he had used, and he carefully preserved every single item.
Now that the person he had been waiting for had returned, he was afraid that the other person would feel uncomfortable, so his expression was unusually awkward.
Seeing him like this, Yu Tang felt bitter.
He shook his head...
"No need to buy new ones, the old slippers are comfortable."
Shen Yu breathed a sigh of relief, then habitually reached out to help Yu Tang take off her coat, took both of their coats, and then led Yu Tang upstairs.
Yu Tang looked at the furnishings in the villa, which were almost exactly the same as when he left, and very clean.
He remembered that Shen Yu was a germaphobe and would never hire a housekeeper to clean.
"Have you been cleaning this house by yourself for the past three years?"
“Hmm…” Shen Yu replied, “After you left, I’ve been living here. Living alone doesn’t make too much of a mess, and it’s easy to clean.”
The little princess occasionally knocks things over, and even after being scolded, he doesn't change his ways.
“Cats, they all like to run around.” Yu Tang asked, “Where’s the little princess? I haven’t seen her.”
Shen Yu hung up their clothes and yawned softly.
"Because this trip to international waters will take two days, I asked Song Cheng to take care of things for me."
As he spoke, he took out his phone.
“If you miss him, I’ll call Song Cheng right now and have him send the little princess over…”
Suddenly, someone grabbed my waist from behind.
Shen Yu was slightly taken aback.
Yu Tang embraced him, feeling each other's warm body temperature.
"Let Dr. Song take care of that little princess for now."
"Right now, I'd rather spend some time alone with this little princess beside me. We don't need anyone to bother us."
Chapter 12
The villain is resurrected for the second time (12)
"How many times have I told you, don't call me 'little princess'?" Shen Yu's face flushed slightly. "I haven't even settled the score with you for calling me that on the ship before, and now you're calling me that again..."
Shen Yu is a typical stubborn person.
Yu Tang took the initiative to hug her, and she even heard him say that he wanted to spend some time alone with her.
His mind was already wandering, and he could only hide his true feelings through these muttered thoughts.
"Calling you that is a sign of your love. You'll get used to it after a few times." Yu Tang forced herself not to think about the possible future outcomes, and just wanted to cherish the present moment.
So, she gently tiptoed and kissed Shen Yu's earlobe: "Little princess? Would you like to hear a bedtime story?"
Shen Yu's body stiffened, and a light blush spread down his earlobe to half of his face.
He held Yu Tang's hand, his voice hoarse: "Don't tease me, I'm afraid your body can't take it."
Yu Tang was completely bewildered.
He saw Shen Yu yawning and knew he was sleepy. So he told him a bedtime story before he went to sleep.
I really just want to sleep.
But he didn't expect that Shen Yu would still have the energy to make love to him!
Is this guy's body made of iron?
"Ahem, Shen Yu, that's not what I meant." He quickly clarified, "I meant to ask you if you want to go to bed."
"After all, you see, neither of us got a proper night's sleep on the ship. We're exhausted and sleepy, so we need to rest as soon as we get home..."
For some inexplicable reason, the more I explained, the more strange it seemed.
As Yu Tang spoke, his voice grew softer.
Shen Yu turned around and faced the somewhat flustered Yu Tang, and asked.
"Oh, so that means we'll do it after resting?"
"Just kidding..." When Shen Yu genuinely laughs, it's easy to overlook his intimidating identity; his smile is natural and charming.
He took out their pajamas from the closet.
"Should I change it for you, or should I do it for you?"
Yu Tang quickly said.
"I'm not a child! I can change it myself!"
But when he took off his clothes, he found Shen Yu sitting on the bed, silently watching him, seemingly not planning to leave.
That gaze was like an X-ray, as if it wanted to penetrate his entire being.
Yu Tang couldn't help but say, "Why are you just looking at me? Aren't you going to change yourself?"
Shen Yu then came to his senses.
"I'm just so happy."
"What are you so happy about?"
He said, "For a long time before you left, you were sickly and very thin."