No, every single time, she's the one who forgives her. This time, she's decided not to take that step again.
When they arrived at the courtyard gate, Cheng Qing got out of the car first and held up an umbrella. Luo Xi, who didn't have an umbrella, wasn't in a hurry to get out. Cheng Qing walked around the car, opened the door for her, and held the umbrella over her.
Luo Xi got out of the car, took the umbrella from Cheng Qing's hand, and walked inside without waiting at all.
Cheng Qing first bowed and thanked the driver, then followed Luo Xi into the courtyard, silently closing the iron gate. Turning back, she called out to Luo Xi's retreating figure, "Luo Xi."
Losi had already reached the wooden door of the small building when she heard Cheng Qing's shout, and she finally couldn't help but stop.
"Can we talk in the yard?" Cheng Qing asked.
Losi paused, then turned to look at Cheng Qing.
The rain was heavy tonight, and Cheng Qing, standing not far away, was soaked through in no time. There were no lights in the courtyard; the light came from the streetlights. A faint drizzle fell, and Cheng Qing, hidden in the shadows of the wall, could only be seen as a blurry figure.
He looked so pitiful, like an abandoned puppy.
Losi felt a pang of pain in her heart, but ultimately couldn't bear to part with him. She held up her umbrella and walked up to Cheng Qing.
As you get closer, you can see that Cheng Qing's black hair is stuck tightly to her cheeks because of the rain, and the raindrops gather on her face and fall down to her chin.
Losie said, "You say you like me, but you're afraid to be with me. What's the reason?"
Cheng Qing no longer hesitated: "There is a country called China. There lives a girl who aspired to become an Olympic champion since childhood and practiced relentlessly. Finally, at the age of 26, she won the championship for the national team after many years."
Losi frowned: "What do you mean?"
Cheng Qing looked down at her, her gaze heavy and lifeless: "That girl was also named Cheng Qing. She died in a car accident on the very day she won the fencing championship."
Luo Xi's heart skipped a beat, and she suddenly felt a tearing sensation in her heart. She didn't dare to ask Cheng Qing: Why is that girl also named Cheng Qing?
It seemed she had a guess in her mind. But this guess was so outlandish that it was hard to believe.
Is this reason just to deceive oneself?
Cheng Qing: "Later, when the girl opened her eyes, she found herself in another world. This world also had a China, and there was also a girl named Losi."
Her name is Losie...
Her name is Losi...
Losi...
Cheng Qing spoke very softly, but almost every word exploded in Luo Xi's ears. Especially the last sentence, which almost confirmed an impossible guess.
Lossie's breath hitched. She looked up abruptly, scrutinizing Cheng Qing with a suspicious gaze.
Cheng Qing smiled slightly, but her smile contained bitterness and helplessness.
Her voice was hoarse as she reached out and touched Rossi's face, gently stroking it, and softly told Rossi, "I feel like I have to leave..."
— "Or rather, I should go back."
Author's Note:
Chapter 139
As Losi stood there, she felt the hustle and bustle of the world recede, and even the sound of the rain became indistinct.
Looking up at Cheng Qing, who was bathed in her gentle gaze, she felt a surge of attraction, just as she had always done.
But her gentle gaze held a deep sorrow that caused Rossi's inner world to suddenly crumble.
"Are you lying to me to reject me?" Losi asked, her voice trembling with tears.
Cheng Qing paused for a moment, then smiled bitterly with heartache: "Luo Xi, since you've spoken, it's not a lie."
Losi's voice was hoarse: "But...you told me before that you had amnesia..."
Cheng Qing froze: "...I'm sorry, that was indeed a lie."
Losi laughed: "See, so you can still lie."
Cheng Qing choked for a moment, then finally pulled Luo Xi into her arms: "I'm sorry."
She didn't say anything, but Losi understood. I'm sorry I lied to you back then, I'm sorry I'm not lying to you now.
Luo Xi pushed Cheng Qing away, tears streaming down her face.
She looked up at Cheng Qing with anger and resentment in her eyes and demanded, "So why did you tell me?"
Cheng Qing: "I don't want you to hate me."
Lossie no longer knew what she wanted. Suddenly, she threw down her umbrella, pounded on Cheng Qing's chest with both hands, and shouted, "Then why did you reject me before? Why were you so nice to me? Why did you make me like you? Why!!!"
If I hadn't liked him to begin with, if I hadn't liked him that much to begin with, would this kind of separation have even happened?
Does she still need to experience this heart-wrenching feeling?
"Waaaaah..." Tears suddenly burst forth like a dam breaking. Losi's legs went weak, and she knelt on the ground, wiping away the tears from her eyes with both hands, but no matter what she did, she couldn't wipe them away.
The tears wiped away will well up again...
Cheng Qing stood in front of her, looked down at Luo Xi, and slowly said, "I'm sorry." She couldn't say anything else besides those three words.
Losi cried for a while before she slowly regained her composure, then looked up and asked, "You've been hiding this from me because you don't trust me?"
Cheng Qing shook her head: "I just don't want you to be sad."
Lossie scoffed, "What makes you think I'd be sad?"
Cheng Qing: "I'm sorry."
Losi looked at her sharply: "Is all you can say 'sorry'?"
Cheng Qing remained blankly unresponsive. Luo Xi, exasperated, stood up and stood on tiptoe, trying to look Cheng Qing in the eye.
But overwhelmed by the extreme joy and sorrow, she was exhausted and almost fell over after only a short while because of the sudden loss of strength.
Fortunately, Cheng Qing reacted quickly and caught her in his arms. Luo Xi didn't even seem to notice anything amiss. In that position, she asked condescendingly, "You presumptuously think you're doing this for my own good, and then you make decisions without asking me. Now you're telling me without even asking me. What gives you the right?"
Cheng Qing: "I'm sorry, I was selfish."
Lossie: "You're just selfish. You rejected me first, and now you're saying such absurd things. Do you expect me to accept you?"
Cheng Qing choked, lowered her eyes, and looked forlorn and pitiful.
"I'm sorry, I just want you to know that if one day I stop liking you, that person won't be me. Even if I'm not by your side anymore, I will still like you."
A tactful expression of love is always touching.
Losi choked, her face turning red, and after a long while she said in an even fiercer tone, "How can you prove you're not from this world?"
Cheng Qing chuckled and said, "We're too different, and our talents don't overlap at all. It's too easy to tell that we're not the same person."
Luo Xi remained silent, clenching her fists. In truth, even if Cheng Qing hadn't said anything, Luo Xi, as someone who liked her, had naturally had her doubts.
She had asked, and Cheng Qing's fencing skills were not amateurish.
She also knew that although Cheng Qing had amnesia, she would occasionally say things like she did when she was a child.
Luo Xi had her doubts, but because it was Cheng Qing who said it, she didn't think too much about it, even if there was something wrong with it.
Because Teacher Cheng told her all of that!
How could she bear to... bear to doubt?
Overwhelmed by these emotions, Losi finally lowered her head, leaned on Cheng Qing's shoulder, and whispered, "When... are you leaving?"
Cheng Qing: I don't know, maybe next month, or maybe next year.
Luo Xi gave Cheng Qing a deep look, then turned and left without saying another word.
Cheng Qing picked up the umbrella from the ground and followed her into the house. Seeing Luo Xi looking lost and dejected as she walked upstairs, she knew that Luo Xi hadn't yet processed what she had said.
But the more she was like this, the more confused she became. Cheng Qing was worried about her, as she was soaked from the rain, so she reminded her from behind, "Don't forget to take a hot shower."
Losi turned back and gave her a long, brooding look, then gave a cold smile and walked away, ignoring her.
Cheng Qing: "..."
***
After returning to her room, Losi sat directly on the edge of the bed, completely oblivious to her soaking wet state. She stared blankly at the carpet on the floor, as if her mind was about to explode with information, but upon closer inspection, it seemed as if her mind was a blank, devoid of anything.
It took her a while to sort things out.
A few months ago, Cheng Qing was in a car accident. Was that the one?
She came into her own world.
In other words, she and I are not from the same world.
Even if two people love each other, they may never see each other again in their entire lives?
Thinking about this, Rossi's heart broke, and tears streamed down her face again. How long could she stay? How long could she stay with her?
With red eyes, Losi began to ask herself if she could accept it.
If we were going to separate in the first place, why did I even start?
If it starts, even if she leaves, it won't concern me, right?
But……
Thinking of the day Teacher Cheng came to me, thinking of Cheng Qing standing in front of me with a fencing sword to protect me, thinking of Teacher Cheng's courage to swim back to shore from the deserted island for my sake, thinking of all the good things about Teacher Cheng...
If we part ways like this, let's make today our last day...
Just thinking about it made it hard for Rossi to breathe; her heart was so broken it couldn't be pieced back together...
How could I bear to part with it? How could I bear to part with it?
Even if it's just for a day, or even just for an hour...
***
Fang Silei heard from Kong Mingyan that Luo Xi and Cheng Qing had quarreled.
That's really strange! They have such a good relationship, how could they argue? What was it about?
If you ask Lossie... she'll definitely be stubborn and refuse to admit it. Let's ask Teacher Cheng instead! Teacher Cheng is more mature and handles things better than Lossie.
Just then, the phone on the table rang. She looked closely, and lo and behold, it was her princess!