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"You dare call me a woman?!"

He hit someone, and then sat on the ground crying. I really don't understand why men in the capital are all so strange. Maybe I'm just not suited to living here. He cried, but my elder brother didn't care. He insulted the reputation of the Prince's Mansion, but my elder brother pretended not to hear.

Later, he even harassed a woman in public. I stared at him, mouth agape. How could he ruin his image like that? He even clung to a man and wouldn't get down. When my older brother finally carried him away from the scene of the trouble, he was still cursing and swearing.

I learned from others that his name was Shen Ziyi, my older brother's classmate. His background was similar to mine, and his mother's birth was also difficult.

I secretly watched him for a long time, and it turned out that my older brother's indifference towards me wasn't because of my status.

I don't know whether to be happy or sad, brother! If I hated him before, I no longer had the right to hate him when he forced me out.

Why does an older brother dote on a boy with a similar background to me?

I tried to get close to him, and he said he was going to Yanxiaolou.

I haven't been back for more than a few days and I can't understand what "Yanxiaolou" is.

He eventually accompanied me to pick up the knife. I could tell he didn't like me at first, but later he smiled happily. After I got the knife, he handed the knife shop a blank bill. I asked curiously, "Aren't you going to pay?"

"That's already been given!" He pulled me out of the blacksmith's shop, then turned back and drew me a strange multi-functional military knife. I was completely convinced of my defeat. It turned out they really were from the same country. I had to admit how ridiculous my pride and dignity had been.

Holding the newly made military knife, I deliberately lingered in front of my older brother. He finally glanced at me and asked, "Yi gave this to you!" My older brother seemed quite angry.

"Yes," I replied, bowing my head. No one in this house dared to disobey him, including me; he could kill me as easily as crushing an ant.

"He just likes tinkering with weird and unusual things." To borrow someone's description, when he said this, his eyes lit up with the sight of a red scarf. They also confiscated my new knife; I dared not, and had no reason to, object.

When my older brother doesn't go out, I always go to see him. I want to know what I can do to make him like me.

But after being with him for so long, I don't know what I can learn from him except that he likes to throw tantrums and be unreasonable.

Just like now, he's strutting around the streets with his elder brother's jade pendant hanging around his neck, and anyone who dares to disobey him is sent to the Prince Shouping's mansion.

I never pay for food or items, and I even swipe their bills without a second thought. Do I have to become like that for my brother to care about me the way he cares about him? I'd rather not. I'd rather go back to the army, I'd rather spend my whole life on the battlefield.

Zi Yi is arrogant, and he has the right to be arrogant. Not only is his older brother good to him, but I also found that Su Gu is very good to him. That day, he asked me to pick someone up at the prison gate. Even though Su Gu was poor and destitute, she was as beautiful as the legends say.

Su Gu and Zi Yi are very similar, the only difference being their outward appearance. Zi Yi is weak, while Su Gu is tall and slender. He made me carry the seriously injured Su Gu into the underground bank, and even pressed one of Su Gu's hands on the table, saying, "Listen up, you guys, if you want to collect debts in the future, go to him. He's my spokesperson."

Su Gu was so angry her hair almost stood on end, but when she got back she still returned the money to him, said a few meaningless words and that was the end of it.

If my older brother used to ignore me, I've noticed he seems to dislike me these past few days. I can only smile wryly, unsure whether I should be happy about it.

He approached me and told me to stay away from Li Ziyi, and I nodded.

Ziyi doesn't care about me, but it's different for my older brother. I want him to take me seriously, I want him to treat me like a younger brother. It's all my fault for being so blind that day. I wanted to get closer to see what was so attractive about Ziyi to my older brother, but I got too close and couldn't help but think the wrong thing. Sometimes men really can be without feelings but still have desires.

My older brother and father had a falling out. My father seemed to want to kill Ziyi. I don't understand why. Even though he has many flaws, he is still a good friend. Moreover, my older brother likes him. If my father really wants to fall out with my older brother over an outsider, my older brother's attitude is firm, and my father will not give in either.

Soon rumors began to circulate in the court about him and the Chancellor, and his elder brother and father fought in the back garden, making everyone feel insecure.

I stood at a distance, knowing that it was not something I could interfere with. My eldest brother had joined the army under my father's arrangement.

When Ziyi asked me what my older brother was doing, I was a little distracted. "Don't you know?"

"How would I know?" he answered matter-of-factly, even with a hint of disregard for his elder brother.

I was inexplicably angry, angry at him. But secretly I was pleased: it turns out that even my older brother can't have everything he wants.

The last time I saw him was not a pleasant one; he ignored my attempts to stop him and went into Yanxiao Tower.

Doesn't he feel ashamed of his identity and position? Doesn't he think about those poor women? I really hate him. When he got close to me, I consciously pressed him down, wanting to terrify him.

But he didn't even bother with a symbolic struggle, looking at me with shining eyes.

When I met his eyes, my anger subsided, and all I wanted was to truly pin him down and satisfy the desires in my heart.

Before I lost my temper, Su Gu arrived, and I knew he was very angry. I wanted to laugh but couldn't. He sent someone to take me back to the Prince's Mansion, and I knocked myself unconscious against the door, not wanting my elder brother to see me like this.

But my elder brother still seemed to know something, or rather, he seemed to think everyone knew something. Zi Mo had come to see me after that day, and the Prime Minister Sikong had also come. Sikong didn't say anything when he came, nor did he need to, because he was there to deliver the Emperor's decree. I have to go back again. So many people want to drive me away for such a ridiculous reason. It turns out they are just as ridiculous as I am.

When my older brother and Ziyi come to see me off, looking at that familiar face, I suddenly don't want to leave, but it's no use. Some people are destined to be controlled by others for their entire lives. I just hope that when he comes back next time, he will still be so carefree and so heartless.

I waved to him, a wave to my only friend.

Turning my horse around, I felt sad for my elder brother, realizing that even he, who possessed everything, was not happy. We lacked too much and couldn't fight against a future that wasn't meant for us. Bless you, elder brother.

I miss you, Ziyi, even though you have many flaws...

Stepping into a place that doesn't belong to me, I feel so out of place. Perhaps the battlefield is where I belong, but no, the battlefield doesn't belong to me; it's waiting for my elder brother.

Then let me stand behind you and watch how tomorrow's world becomes yours...

[Bonus Chapter: Ouyang Wu Hui (Part 1)]

I really didn't want to hit him, but he's so annoying, daring to brag about how great his father is in front of me. Doesn't he realize that my father is the greatest hero of Dongqing? An invincible man.

His father was just a coward who only knew how to use a pen, and a lowly official whom even the emperor looked down upon. What was there to be proud of?

So I beat him up, crippling him half to death.

My father once said that it's easy to kill someone, but difficult to make them wish they were dead, so I beat him half to death. I want him to suffer a fate worse than death.

The Minister of the Imperial Secretariat at the time was Chen Lifeng, who was later killed by us.

But at that time I still followed instructions and left the palace classroom, and was arranged by my mother to enter the Huguo Academy.