A post by a CP fan dominated the headlines for three days. He couldn't help but take a look and even learned a new word: be.
It means a pessimistic ending.
He felt a deep unease in his heart, and it took him a long time to calm down. It seemed that no matter where he was in the world, no matter where he fled to, Shen Moyu's shadow was always there.
Yes, they broke up.
A couple once admired and admired by many separated so abruptly, leaving even bystanders feeling regretful.
Will people who love each other break up? This question is even more perfunctory than their ending.
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Staying up all night to study and do practice problems has become the norm for Su Jinning. At this critical juncture of senior year, everyone is scrambling to get ahead, with only one thought in mind: study until you drop.
It seems everyone is making the best preparations for their future. After class, unrealistic statements can often be heard in the noisy classroom: "I want to be a big boss!" "I want to go abroad!" "I want to be a big star!"
Everyone's eyes were shining, and somehow, these seemingly absurd dreams sounded perfectly natural coming from the mouths of these seventeen or eighteen-year-olds.
Of course, some people don't have any dreams.
I just feel that if I don't get into a good university, it seems like I'm letting down these three years. I think that's how students should be.
Su Jinning thought so too. What about after that? He didn't know; it seemed his plans for the future were completely limited to getting into Fudan University.
But he remembered that he wasn't like this before; he used to think far ahead, even planning where to buy a house in the future. But suddenly, he felt that he didn't want it as much anymore.
As for the future, I'll cut all ties with Fudan University.
Later on, he could only describe himself with one sentence: take it one step at a time.
During the monthly exams at the end of March, Su Jinning didn't sleep for two days in a row. Chen Hang joked that he would become nearsighted sooner or later if he studied like that. As a result, he went to get his eyesight tested that night and found that he was indeed nearsighted. He chased after Chen Hang, calling him a jinx, and when he caught him, he threw him in the toilet.
However, trading nearsightedness for some practical benefits isn't a bad deal.
For example, in this monthly exam, Su Jinning ranked first in her grade and among the top five in the city.
He was sleeping the night the results were announced when his phone woke him up. He opened it to find the class group chat going crazy. Some were complaining about their grades dropping, others were overjoyed that they'd gotten the last question right. And then there was this idiot Chen Hang, spamming the chat: "Ning-ge is number one in No. 1 High School! Ning-ge is invincible!"
Suddenly, one of his toes curled up, almost causing him to tear out Barbie's dream mansion.
He asked Chen Hang to delete it, but he refused. Soon after, many classmates also sent their blessings.
If you were to ask Su Jinning how she felt at the time, besides disbelief, it would be just average.
It seems that they felt that it was quite normal for them to achieve this result after studying in this way.
He put down his phone and lay on the bed for a long time, but the joy he had imagined countless times did not come over him; instead, he felt depressed.
He was like a donkey pulling a millstone, endlessly circling around the same place, with people around him constantly urging him on, so he could only keep running forward without daring to slack off.
The next day at school, he was immediately called to the office by Jin Shuoshuo. The principal and Wei Teng were both there, and their attitudes toward him underwent a complete 880-degree turn. Wei Teng's mouth was practically stretched to his ears with a grin.
I repeatedly told the principal how naughty the child was before and how I disciplined him.
Jin Shuoshuo and Su Jinning smiled at each other, neither of them exposing his lie.
Zhengde No.1 Middle School has a "Wisdom List", which, as the name suggests, is for students who rank in the top five in the city to sign their names on it and then take a photo with the principal while holding their certificates.
However, the name was indeed a bit too clever. Su Jinning complained about it a thousand times in his heart every time he saw it, but he never dreamed that one day he would become one of them.
He followed Jin Shuoshuo to the lobby of the art building across the street. Upon entering, they were greeted by a wall covered in densely packed writing—a "Wisdom Ranking."
Before Su Jinning even got close, she could vaguely see countless signatures of Shen Moyu.
His heart skipped a beat, as if a large stone had been thrown into a calm lake.
"Here, let's find a place to write your name." Jin Shuoshuo picked up the marker next to him and handed it to Su Jinning.
He stared at the three characters 'Shen Moyu' on the list, and his mood suddenly plummeted. He couldn't find a place to write for a long time.
"What's wrong? Can't find a gap?" Jin Shuoshuo walked over and asked.
“Ah, no…” Su Jinning uncapped the pen and wrote her name in a very small gap.
Below the large three characters 'Shen Moyu'.
Jin Shuoshuo chuckled and teased, "Why are you writing it so small? Are you afraid it will upset Shen Moyu if you cover it up?"
Su Jinning was stunned for a moment, then laughed. It was the first time he had laughed out loud since the start of the semester, and he was somewhat surprised himself, realizing that his laughter sounded like this.
Seeing Shen Moyu's name on the entire page, he suddenly felt a sense of resonance, as if his heart had been filled as well.
But the difference is that this feeling seems to have been there for a long time, but he is only now realizing it.
After filling in his name, he forced a smile and took a photo with the principal holding the certificate. Only after everything was done did he feel relieved and return to the classroom with Jin Shuoshuo.
The temperature seemed very muggy today. It started to feel hot as soon as I stepped out of the art building, and I was sweating profusely. Jin Shuoshuo noticed this too and took a small fan from his office and shoved it over there.
Su Jinning was extremely grateful, and then jokingly asked, "Do all students who do well on exams get this treatment?"
Jin Shuoshuo rolled his eyes: "Yes, yes, yes, that's for sure. Back then, I favored Shen Moyu and gave him several of them."
She was joking, and it was indeed very funny, but Su Jinning couldn't feel happy.
It seemed like he had been quiet for a long time. After a while, the cool breeze made his face sting a little. The whirring of the fan was just like his mood right now, a tangled mess of yarn with no end in sight.
Jin Shuoshuo finally spoke: "Go back and tell Shen Moyu this good news." She pursed her lips, her eyes also dimming slightly: "He will be happy for you."
After Jin Shuoshuo finished speaking, Su Jinning felt extremely uncomfortable, as if she had been forcibly dragged into a memory and replayed from beginning to end before being thrown back into it.
He held his phone, staring at the chat box for a long time, seemingly with a real urge to send a message.
I wanted to tell him that I had done it, and that one day I could finally stand beside him.
But he couldn't imagine what Shen Moyu would reply, or perhaps, she wouldn't reply at all.
The chat window that he used to eagerly check as soon as he woke up eventually sank to the very bottom, with even classmates from the next class he'd only seen a few times above him.
My WeChat profile is constantly updating with the people I've recently contacted, while those I have nothing to say to are destined to disappear without a trace. It turns out that time has long since stopped in early spring, but my lingering memories have slowed the passage of time.
Suddenly, I realized that so much time had passed.