La luna brilla intensamente sobre las montañas desiertas y las flores llenan el cielo - Capítulo 104
Long San's voice trailed off, and he lowered his head for a long time before finally mustering the courage to look up at her: "The most despicable thing I've ever done in my life is this. When you were very likely in love with someone else... I... stole your love..."
Xiao Wu was completely stunned, unsure how to react. Looking into Long San's pained and pleading eyes, she felt as if an invisible hand was twisting her heart. He was afraid, and his eyes were even faintly glistening with tears. Were they...?
This was the first time Xiao Wu had ever seen Long San shed tears. The dashing and debonair Long San Ye could actually shed tears, all because he had stolen his love.
"Don't hate me, Feng'er!"
Author's Note:
I think I'll be able to finish this story this week, but as I write, I feel a little sad.
78. The Long couple discussing countermeasures
Xiao Wu stared at Long San, his mind in turmoil.
Hate him? Her mind was completely consumed by him. All these years, he had been by her side, making her happy, causing her distress, letting her be spoiled, letting her throw tantrums, and helping her stay strong. She had absolutely no recollection of that Senior Brother Nianyi.
How could she hate him? How could she possibly hate him?
Xiao Wu's eyes filled with tears again. So this was how he had treated her. The more she thought about it, the sadder she became, and she simply covered her face and burst into tears again.
Long San couldn't hold back any longer and leaned in to hug her tightly. Neither of them spoke until Xiao Wu started sobbing uncontrollably, until she could cry no more. Only then did she realize there was dampness on the back of her neck. She was even more annoyed. She was crying because she'd been bullied, but what about him? He cried just because she was crying, just joining in the fun, so pathetic!
She shoved Long San away, yelling, "Get out of here!"
Long San couldn't roll over, so he loosened his grip slightly to check on her. Seeing that her face was streaked with tears, he got out of bed and wrung out a wet cloth to wipe her face. This time, Xiao Wu didn't refuse and lifted her face for him to wipe. But after he finished wiping her face, when he tried to sit down next to her, she pushed him away.
Long San stood there, unsure whether to back away or approach, and after a long while, he managed to choke out a sentence: "Feng'er, I know I've done wrong and made you suffer a lot. You can blame me however you want, or ask me to make it up to you however I want, but, considering my sincere feelings for you, you, you mustn't leave me."
"Get out of here, you big idiot. Why should I leave? I'm carrying your baby. Why should I leave? You have to take care of me, feed me well, dress me well, and support us. How can I leave? That would be letting you off easy! Not only would it be letting you off easy, but it would also let other women off easy. I'm not that stupid."
Xiao Wu roared angrily, "Whatever I want to eat or drink, you have to get it for me. Whatever I want to sleep or make a fuss about, you have to let me have my way. I'll remember this. I'll forgive you if I want to, but if I don't, you still have to stay by my side. And you always say you'll take care of everything, right? Well, my background, my mother—you have to find out all about these things. If Qiao Li really did something shameful, if she harmed my mother, I won't let her get away with it."
She yelled a few times and then felt tired. She stopped to catch her breath, and Long San, being very obsequious, quickly handed her some water. Xiao Wu drank it all in one gulp, handed the cup back, and said matter-of-factly, "I want more."
Long San quickly poured another cup and handed it to Xiao Wu. Xiao Wu drank it slowly, regained his strength, and continued, "And that Lan Hu, greedy, vicious, and wicked, even tried to kill me. We can't let him go so easily."
"certainly."
"Hmph." Xiao Wu glared: "If I hadn't mentioned it, who knows, that guy who claimed to be Feng Ning would have cried and begged you, and you would have softened and let him go."
"No way."
"Anyway, let me make this clear from the start: no matter what happened before, no matter what my name is, you are my husband now, and I'm carrying your baby. You're not allowed to look at Feng Ning, and you're not allowed to look at anyone who looks exactly like me either."
"Okay, okay, I won't look at her."
"You're not allowed to look at anyone who doesn't look like me."
"Yes, yes, we don't look at them."
Xiao Wu paused, then lowered his voice: "And you have to help me find my master and senior brothers too."
Long San stood there frozen for a long while before finally replying, "Okay."
"Why are you dawdling like this? I hate it when people are unhappy. I'm not some woman who's cheated on her husband. Even if there was something in the past, now that I'm with you, I'm completely devoted. The past is the past. Although I'm a woman, I have my responsibilities. Even if I remember something in the future, I will never wrong you. You're good to me, so naturally I'll be good to you." As she said this, she thought of her senior brother Nianyi, who had no memory of her. She didn't know what had become of them, and she felt guilty for forgetting him. Thinking about it, she felt both ashamed and sad.
Long San looked at her and, surprisingly, knew what she was thinking. He said, "This has nothing to do with you. It's all my fault."
Xiao Wu gritted her teeth, tears blurring her vision again. Her voice was hoarse as she said, "The mistake has already been made. You've wronged him, but you can't wrong me too. The past can never be returned to." She now loves Long San and has his baby. She doesn't know what happened in the past, but if she truly wronged Senior Brother Nian Yi, then she can only be sorry.
Seeing her like this, Long San knew that saying anything would be useless, so he could only stand there quietly. Xiao Wu felt her mind was in a mess, and suddenly burst into tears again. Long San couldn't even sigh this time, and said softly, "Don't cry, or you'll ruin your eyes."
"You big bastard, you big liar." Xiao Wu didn't know what to say, but it was always good to curse him.
"Fine, it's my fault." Long San completely lost his temper, his submissive tone was outrageous. "You can curse me all you want, but don't cry, okay?"
"What are you saying? Do you think I can control whether I cry or not? The tears just fall on their own, what can I do? You were just crying, why can't you make the tears go back on their own?"
Xiao Wu's words silenced Long San's attempt to comfort her. He touched his nose and remained silent. Xiao Wu sniffed and tried to rub her eyes, but Long San quickly stopped her and gently wiped them with a handkerchief.
Xiao Wu knew that crying like this wasn't a solution, and she became irritable. Long San, standing beside her, didn't know how to comfort her, especially since he was still a convict and anything he said would be wrong. So he simply stayed by her side and said nothing. But after a while, Xiao Wu became dissatisfied again.
She said, "Long San, I feel uncomfortable."
Long San quickly replied, "Are you thirsty? Would you like some more water?" He brought over a glass of water, and Xiao Wu drank it, but said, "Drinking water won't help."
Long San immediately realized what was going on and said, "What do you want to eat? I'll make it for you." He hadn't even considered that it was so late, and he couldn't let her order the food.
Ke Xiaowu ignored all of that and thought for a moment: "I want something sweet."
"Sweet?" Long San quickly thought of suitable ingredients in his mind: "How about lotus seed soup?"
"That will take a long time."
"How about honey-filled sweet cake?"
"It's too dry, I want something with soup."
Long San was so worried that he made several more requests, thinking that if he couldn't cook them, he would smash the chef in the restaurant to make sure his Feng'er could eat what she wanted.
But Xiao Wu had no appetite for any of the dishes, and finally said, "How about some millet porridge?"
"That's it?" Long San was surprised. After all that fuss, she had only ordered the most ordinary and simple dish. Xiao Wu nodded, got out of bed, sat down at the round table, and assumed a waiting posture. Long San quickly ran off to prepare the food for her.
The pregnant woman's appetite was truly incomprehensible. Xiao Wu usually didn't like millet porridge, but today she ate it with great relish, finishing three large bowls before stopping. Full, she finally regained her energy and wasn't so upset anymore. But she paced back and forth in the room, starting to get angry.
"You're pregnant, you shouldn't walk like this. Would it be better to sit down and get angry?" Long San watched her movements with fear in his heart.