As Luo Xi read this, her voice softened, and then she looked up at Cheng Qing.
Cheng Qing thought for a moment and then said, "...I think I can still explain a few things."
Losi: "...However, I don't want to hear it."
Cheng Qing: "..." The retribution for peeping into other people's privacy came so quickly, fiercely, and intensely.
Author's Note:
Chapter 117
Seeing the person she likes describe their feelings for another person in this way, unless Losi is heartless, how could she not be heartbroken?
The way she looked at Cheng Qing was a silent accusation.
Cheng Qing paused for a moment, closed the diary, and said, "...I think I'll just not read it!"
Losi, unconvinced, opened the diary again: "See, didn't you say that you have amnesia and you are not the same person as before?"
Cheng Qing chuckled: "Although I said this and you said you heard it, I know it's hard to separate the present me from the past me."
Losi could only say, "Let's wait and see! Didn't you lose your memory? I heard that tomorrow's daily task is for everyone. If we don't check it, we won't be able to respond to anything Mingyue says!"
Cheng Qing said, "Then just say I have amnesia! It's a fact, and there are records at the hospital. There's no need to hide amnesia."
Losi frowned, seemingly unwilling, and said coquettishly, "I'll keep it a secret."
Cheng Qing chuckled blankly and said, "Fine, I'll keep it a secret then!" Without saying anything more, she opened her diary and began to read.
***
For the original owner of this body, Mingyue was a ray of light, a light that illuminated the darkness in her life.
Humans all love to pursue light and look forward to hope.
Mingyue is such a person that makes the original owner's downfall seem so reasonable.
From this moment on, the original owner of this body officially fell in love with Mingyue. But at first, she suppressed her feelings and only secretly liked Mingyue.
She enjoys observing Mingyue's every move, feeling moved by her smiles and heartbroken by her sadness.
She no longer recorded being bullied in her diary; every single day, she filled it with the name "Mingyue." This made even holidays more unbearable for the original owner of the body, to the point that her diary entries for each day were filled with the words "Mingyue."
Looking at the diary filled with Mingyue's name from beginning to end, Luo Xi felt a pang of sadness.
She looked up at Cheng Qing again, and Cheng Qing looked down at her, smiled slightly, and asked, "Want to look again?"
Losi choked, then gritted her teeth and said, "Look."
So, Cheng Qing turned the page...
The original owner of this body did not suppress her feelings for too long. Mingyue was the school beauty and was in high school.
The students' youthful passions are filled with innocence and courage. There's no concept of social status or the greasy flattery.
I like the way people express themselves; it's all so simple and sincere.
As the school beauty, Mingyue has a cheerful personality, so naturally many people like her.
Many men and women have confessed their feelings to Mingyue, and the original owner of this body naturally saw this.
She didn't want to regret missing this opportunity, so one day she suddenly turned around and confessed her feelings to Mingyue.
Cheng Qing had a good understanding of the world. She knew that before the passage of the same-sex marriage law, the country and society already had a high degree of tolerance for homosexuality.
The fact that the original owner confessed her feelings to Mingyue drew criticism from the entire class, with most people believing that the original owner was not good enough for her.
What left Cheng Qing speechless was that it wasn't just her classmates who thought so; even the original owner of this body felt that she was not good enough for Ming Yue.
When she has nowhere to vent her emotions, when love fills her heart and soul, Cheng Qing will open her diary and write down the name of her secret lover, word by word.
Therefore, the words "Mingyue" can often be seen on an entire page of the diary.
Seeing the words "Mingyue" everywhere, Luo Xi was overwhelmed with shock.
She stared blankly for a long while before finally stammering and asking weakly, "Have you really lost your memory?"
Even now, Luo Xi couldn't help but suspect that Cheng Qing's loss of affection for Ming Yue was indeed due to amnesia. Only amnesia could cause such a intense relationship to vanish so suddenly.
Sensing her unease, Cheng Qing reached out and hugged Luo Xi. She leaned against the headboard, resting her chin on Luo Xi's right shoulder.
She asked, "What does Rossi think?"
Luo Xi lowered her eyes: "...I don't know." She liked Cheng Qing, very, very much, so she understood the feelings expressed in the diary very well.
Cheng Qing tilted her head slightly, resting her cheek against Luo Xi's face, and said with a smile, "I won't joke about feelings."
Feeling relieved, Luo Xi turned to look at Cheng Qing and said, "Me too."
Cheng Qing raised an eyebrow: "Does this count as a confession? Does it mean you accept me?"
Luo Xi was taken aback, only then remembering that she and Cheng Qing had been arguing. Even though the two were being affectionate now, they hadn't actually made their relationship official yet.
She turned her head and said, "I mean, for example, for example..." Although it was just a metaphor, Losi was overjoyed just thinking about it. A shy feeling welled up inside her, and she whispered, "For example, I've chosen you, and you're the only one I'll ever love."
Although Losi gave an example, her serious and shy expression when she said it clearly showed that she was quite earnest.
Cheng Qing was startled. She looked at Luo Xi, who had her head down, revealing only her flushed cheeks and ears, her eyelids concealing the shyness in her eyes. The usually active Luo Xi was now sitting there quietly, a truly pleasing sight.
Cheng Qing felt a warmth in her heart, yet also a sense of heaviness.
“No need for that…” Cheng Qing was only halfway through her sentence when Luo Xi suddenly looked up and stared at her. Cheng Qing smiled and explained, “I mean, if I die, you can still find someone better to be with.”
What kind of talk is that?
Luo Xi was annoyed by Cheng Qing's unrestrained speech, so she scolded her: "Better than you? Aren't you ashamed? Who said you're so great?"
Cheng Qing smiled and hugged her tightly again, then led Luo Xi to look down at the diary again.
***
The original owner's confession caused a huge uproar at the school. In fact, the teachers even called in the original owner's parents to prevent his pursuit from affecting the students' studies.
Of course, she loves so bravely that she won't back down because of this little obstacle.
For the original owner of this body, the biggest obstacle was that Mingyue didn't love her. She even hated her pursuit, but the original owner still tried hard to pursue her and even tried to please every one of Mingyue's friends.
How did the original owner describe herself in her diary?
She said, "Have you ever heard of a clown? For the two years I was by Mingyue's side, I was like a clown. Although I knew it, I could never bear to give up. How can someone who has seen the light be willing to sink into darkness again?"
During my two years of high school, Mingyue rejected me three times. I know I'm not someone you can entrust your life to, but the fact that she didn't reject my advances was the greatest encouragement I could receive.
I will continue to like her and love her until she no longer needs me.
Seeing this, Losi felt a pang of sadness, but couldn't help but mutter sarcastically, "What selfless dedication."
Cheng Qing: "..." After reading six diaries, they finally graduated from high school.
Luo Xi also saw in the diary the story of Cheng Qing being called to the reservoir and tricked into falling into the water.
"That day, the weather was hot. Mingyue, who never took the initiative to contact me, suddenly called me and asked me to go to the reservoir. I was very happy. This was the first time she had contacted me. I would not break my promise even if it meant going through fire and water."
I went, and there was not only Mingyue, but also many of her friends. They said they wanted Mingyue to row a boat with others on the reservoir, but I said it wasn't safe. They asked me to take Mingyue's place, and I agreed. The boat was deflated, and when it reached the center of the reservoir, it sank.
This was my first time experiencing a brush with death, but what saddened me more than the impending death was the laughter coming from the shore.
What he said matched the information Cheng Xi had revealed.
But upon seeing this, Losi couldn't help but scoff, "Serves him right."
Cheng Qing immediately replied, "Exactly."
Losi: "..." I already said this is your own business, don't talk like it's someone else's business!
Losi held it in for a long time... and almost laughed out of anger.
Continue reading the diary. Cheng Qing's diary records her daily life, especially her life related to Ming Yue, and it is written in great detail.
The story clearly describes how he was rescued by his older brother and how the Cheng family was furious after he was discharged from the hospital.
The kids didn't realize how serious the situation was, but their parents did.
Finally, Mingyue was sent to negotiate, but the Cheng family did not agree.
Therefore, Mingyue finally approached the original owner of this body. She told her that she had always admired her, and then told her about the school she had applied to. She said...
"That day, the sky was clear and blue. Mingyue told me that she was looking forward to going to university with me again."
I persuaded my parents to drop the matter of the drowning incident, and then I applied to the same university as Mingyue.
The price was that I cut off all contact with my family from then on. That argument was earth-shattering; I disappointed my parents, and I knew I wasn't a good daughter. But the feelings in my heart, invisible and intangible, controlled me to make this choice.
Even so, my family has never stopped supporting me every month since I started university. I know and understand that my family loves me.
But I want to try again. Sincerity can move mountains. If I am that sincerity, can Mingyue become that mountain?
With same-sex marriage law now in effect, will we have the opportunity to walk down the aisle together?
Because of this, I have been betrayed and abandoned by everyone, forced to grovel and submit, yet I still want to move forward.
Even though she never brought me happiness along the way.
Upon seeing this, Luo Xi suddenly felt less jealous, and her eyes became dry. She even felt sad for such a humble relationship. Stealing a glance at the silent Cheng Qing, Luo Xi felt a deep sadness in her heart.
She longed for it but couldn't have it, and she couldn't let go of it. Qingqing was just a child then; how heartbroken she must have been! Why did she have to fall for such a wicked woman as Mingyue?
If only I had met her sooner...
Cheng Qing sensed her unease, gently patted Luo Xi's back, and comforted her, "It's all in the past."
Losi didn't respond; it was already 3 a.m. when she saw this book. Under Cheng Qing's rhythmic soothing, Losi slowly closed her eyes and drifted off to sleep.
Cheng Qing kept his arm around her and picked up another book to continue reading.
Even after entering university and society, the original owner of this body maintained her habit of writing a diary. During her university years, she continued to pursue Mingyue just as she had in high school.
Of course, Mingyue did not respond to her at all.
On the eve of graduation, in order to get the original owner to give up her entanglement with her, Mingyue told the original owner that she did not like women.
But after graduation, Mingyue started living with a female manager at a company.
Cheng Qing: "..." It's a matter of mutual consent, but it's making me want to vomit blood.