However, it seems that his heart is somewhat incomplete and flawed, so he thinks that only this woman can fill that gap. He was afraid that she would disappear, which is why he possessed her completely in a fit of rage.
"Fine, I've told you, but you don't understand. Go away, go away!" Ji Wushang wiped away her tears. The man in front of her had forgotten, forgotten everything between them. No matter how hard she tried, it was all in vain.
Nan Xuzong once said to her, "May we all live long and prosper."
We once said that we would meet again in the next life, and that we would never forget this life.
They once said to each other, "If you will not abandon me, I will not leave you. If you die, I will follow you."
But in the end, he forgot her, she was helpless and miserable, and he was no longer gentle, no longer doting on her like royalty.
Ji Wushang closed her eyes, refusing to look at him.
Tuoba Heyan remained silent. He looked at Ji Wushang for a long time before saying, "I will go and fetch the medicine."
Upon hearing him leave, Ji Wushang immediately got out of bed and walked away.
Let her have some peace and quiet.
Ji Wushang looked at a small house that seemed to be empty, so he pushed open the door and went inside. He found a corner, slowly squatted down, and curled up into a ball.
It's so nice to be alone and undisturbed.
Nan Xuzong is all better now, everything's fine, which is actually quite good.
I believe he wouldn't abandon Huangfu Jun'an; after all, he's his own flesh and blood, and surely has some blood ties and conscience. He would let Tuoba Heyan take good care of Huangfu Jun'an. Even if he doesn't acknowledge him, at least his life is safe.
There's nothing wrong with it. Ji Wushang smiled faintly.
The only downside is that I no longer know how to face this kind of person.
Ji Wushang hugged herself tightly and then put her head on her knees. Damn it, even though she had slept for a few days and believed that Hongfei had treated her, her legs were still so sore, especially her sensitive areas, which were in excruciating pain!
Ji Wushang sighed, leaned against the corner, and fell asleep in a daze.
Tuoba Heyan carried a bowl of medicine in his hand and walked in, but to his surprise, there was no one inside!
"Damn it!" Tuoba Heyan slammed the medicine down on the table. "Someone come here!" he shouted, immediately summoning everyone from the Mi Luo Palace!
"Find Princess Wushang for me! She hasn't left the Miro Palace!" Tuoba Heyan sneered. "Seal off this entire courtyard! Find her!"
"Yes!" The people around quickly went to look for Ji Wushang.
But where could we find him? Ji Wushang was hiding in that little hut, next to the kitchen, with the door slightly ajar, where firewood was stored, and nobody paid any attention to him!
Tuoba Heyan was as anxious as an ant on a hot pan, but even after turning the entire Miro Palace upside down, he still couldn't find Ji Wushang!
"Princess Wushang, are you punishing me? You won't even give me an explanation? Are you trying to anger me to death?" Tuoba Heyan shouted loudly in the courtyard, and the surrounding palace maids dared not step forward.
Seeing the furious Tuoba Heyan, Hongfei and Cuiwu quickly stepped aside to find someone.
Tuoba Heyan, with his sharp eyes, immediately appeared in front of Hongfei and Cuiwu, grabbing their clothes with both hands. Instantly, Hongfei and Cuiwu both knelt on the ground!
"Tell me, where did you hide Princess Wushang?" Tuoba Heyan glared at them, his anger blazing!
"Does she really hate me that much?" Tuoba Heyan's eyes were bloodshot, his hands ready to strike at any moment!
"Your Majesty, this servant does not know where the princess is hiding. She is unwell and cannot have gone far," Hongfei said rationally, suppressing her fear.
"Yes, the princess is weak. She's hiding now, probably because she doesn't want to see anyone. So, she's probably choosing to hide alone," Cuiwu added, wiping away her tears.
Hiding away, alone, to cry? To lick one's wounds?
The wound in Tuoba Heyan's heart felt as if it were about to burst open! It hurt so much!
"Go find her for me! How long is she going to hide!" Tuoba Heyan glared at them angrily. He wished he could tear everything down so he could find Ji Wushang!
"Yes," Hongfei and Cuiwu both replied.
But just as he was about to leave, Tuoba Heyan asked, "She often hides away by herself?"
"This servant dares not say," Hongfei knelt down again.
"You are innocent!" Tuoba Heyan pointed a finger. "Speak!"
"Since...since...three years ago, when the Fourth Prince passed away, the princess has spent her days in tears and often blames herself. She has been suffering from heartache for more than three years. Only after the little prince was born did she smile a little. However, at night, the princess likes to hide in her room alone. The servants guard outside and often hear her talking to herself, sometimes laughing and sometimes crying, but she cries more often than not."
"Where is that... that Beigong Minhao?" Tuoba Heyan felt a pang of sorrow and pity. This woman was torturing herself so much! Using the dead and memories to torment herself—she was so foolish, so infatuated!
"That's Second Master..."
“Cuiwu…” Hongfei tugged at Cuiwu’s sleeve when she heard this, signaling her to stop talking. After all, this was Tuoba Heyan, not Nan Xucong!
"Speak! Tell me everything!" Tuoba Heyan glared coldly at Hongfei. "If you stop her from speaking, you die!"
Hong Fei immediately took a few steps back upon hearing this. Tuoba Heyan's gaze returned to Cui Wu, "Speak!"
"Second Master, Second Master was merely taking care of the princess temporarily and did not do anything out of line. It was Second Master who escorted the princess to Qingzhao this time. He did everything himself along the way. When it was pouring rain and the carriage got stuck in a muddy ditch, it was Second Master who helped push the princess's carriage, which allowed the princess to arrive in Qingzhao safely."
"Enough!" Tuoba Heyan sneered. "Go and search for her immediately! If you can't find her, you don't need to eat!" Tuoba Heyan glanced at them with his sinister eyes, then turned and walked into the palace. He had to find her, he had to find her!
Why must we live in that kind of pain? Can't we accept new people and new things?
Tuoba Heyan sighed.
These are the words she said...
So what have I really forgotten?
Tuoba Heyan searched the entire Miro Palace but still couldn't find her.
I couldn't even smell her fragrance.
Tuoba Heyan looked remorseful and pained. He sat on the threshold of the Miro Palace, watching people coming and going in the palace, searching for Ji Wushang.
"Uncle, where is my mother?" Huangfu Jun'an walked up to Tuoba Heyan at some point and shook his leg. Tuoba Heyan shook his head, "I don't know."
"Waaah, how could this happen! Give me back my mother, give me back my mother!" Huangfu Jun'an only remembered falling asleep in his arms, and then he was taking care of his mother. How could she have disappeared!
Tuoba Heyan watched him shaking his legs, crying and shouting, and felt a surge of irritation. "Stop crying and shouting!"
"Waaaaah!" Huangfu Jun'an cried even harder after being yelled at by Tuoba Heyan. He pushed Tuoba Heyan's legs away and sat on the steps crying!
Hearing the crying, Hongfei immediately came out. "Young Master, Young Master!" She quickly hugged Huangfu Jun'an. "Young Master, don't cry, don't cry!"
"Waaah, waaah!" Huangfu Jun'an cried, "Uncle bullied Nianlang! After he bullied Mother, he bullied Nianlang! Uncle is bad, so bad!"
Hongfei dared not look at Tuoba Heyan's reaction, fearing that if she did, she would lose her head! And Huangfu Junan... she immediately carried Huangfu Junan to the side.
Tuoba Heyan was filled with rage, but his heart ached terribly. A heart-wrenching feeling surged up, and breathing became incredibly difficult!
He clutched his chest with one hand, "No!" He immediately pressed his acupoints, quickly took out the medicine from his pocket, and swallowed it all without caring how many pills were poured out!
Hongfei and Huangfu Junan looked on in surprise. Huangfu Junan was so stunned that he even forgot to cry!
Tuoba Heyan took a deep breath, then another, closed his eyes, and quickly sat down on the ground to meditate and regulate his breathing.
Ji Wushang was awakened by Huangfu Junan's crying. When she opened her eyes, she found that she was surrounded by darkness. She reached out her hand, looked at it, and then breathed a sigh of relief. She thought she had cried herself blind.
She slowly got up from the ground, but just as she was about to go outside, she remembered hearing Tuoba Heyan in the courtyard. She hesitated. She really didn't want to see that man, but she also wanted to hug Huangfu Jun'an.
Tuoba Heyan relaxed for a moment before standing up from the ground. His sinister eyes looked at the stunned Hong Fei and Huangfu Jun'an. "Aren't you going to go find someone?"
"Yes, yes." Hongfei immediately turned around to look for him and left with Huangfu Jun'an.
As Tuoba Heyan turned around, he was met with the small wooden door.
He was taken aback. He had profound internal strength and excellent eyesight, but it was indeed extremely dark there.
Ji Wu stood there, trying hard to hear the sounds outside.
The wooden gate was only slightly ajar, separating two people from each other into their own world.
Tuoba Heyan looked around. He had already searched the entire area, and this small woodshed was the only place he could find. Could she be inside?
Tuoba Heyan stepped forward.
As Ji Wushang heard the footsteps approaching, his face turned pale, and he immediately squatted down, shrinking into the dark corner.
Tuoba Heyan's eyes, as sharp as a dark abyss, surveyed everything around him.
The air here smelled strongly of dust. It was already night, so there was no light, and there were no candles available online.
Ji Wushang covered his mouth and nose.
Tuoba Heyan slowly walked over. He remembered that Cuiwu had said that she usually chose those dark corners.
His heart ached again.
"Wu Shang, come out. I have something to say to you." Tuoba Heyan's tone was calm, and his mellow voice was like a jar of fine wine that had been brewed for hundreds of years, intoxicating the heart.
Ji Wushang gritted his teeth, deciding not to come out. He wanted her to have some peace and quiet; he didn't want to see him or face him right now. His life was safe, which was already a relief.
Tuoba Heyan searched in another corner, continuing, "I, the King, must apologize to you." He seemed to have thought about it for a long time before saying these words.
"I shouldn't have forced you, and I'm sorry for being so cruel." Tuoba Heyan looked for that corner but couldn't find it, so he looked for another corner.
Ji Wushang clenched her fist and put it to her mouth, biting her fist with her teeth, and tears suddenly fell down her cheeks.
"I beg your forgiveness, I know you're here..." Tuoba Heyan sighed, "I... cannot tolerate anyone touching you, do you understand?"
"Even if you claim to be my brother, it's no use! You can only belong to me, Tuoba Heyan!" Tuoba Heyan suppressed his rising anger. "I'm too anxious about you, so I have no choice but to treat you this way... Come out and explain yourself to me, okay?"
He was about to get close to Ji Wushang. Ji Wushang hesitated, unsure whether she should move, but the next second, he was already in front of her.
Those obsidian-like eyes were fixed on her. Ji Wushang curled up in a ball, clenching her fists, tears welling up and falling.
Tuoba Heyan's heart softened, and he immediately squatted down, placing his hands on her shoulders, and then tried to pull her into his arms, but Ji Wushang pushed him away, "Don't touch me!"
"Don't you accept my apology?" He looked at Ji Wushang, his eyes filled with a trace of sorrow, and Ji Wushang was stunned. That was the compassionate and sorrowful look that only Nan Xuzong possessed. Was it him? Was it really him?
"Cong!" Ji Wushang cried out in anguish.
Tuoba Heyan closed his eyes and sighed. He had finally been defeated by her. He placed his hand on her waist and pulled her into his arms. "I am here."
Hearing this, Ji Wushang cried even louder, "How could you do this to me! How could you force me like this! Ah, sob sob!" Her fists landed squarely on Tuoba Heyan's chest. Tuoba Heyan already had a heart injury, and these blows from her small fists, which might not have bothered him under normal circumstances, now caused him excruciating pain. However, he immediately suppressed the pain and held her tightly, "Alright, I apologize, I apologize, please forgive me, okay?"
"You're bad! You're so bad! Waaah!" Ji Wushang kept hitting him, not caring whether he could take it or not, and just treated him as his own Nan Xuzong.
"I am bad, yes, absolutely bad." Tuoba Heyan was unusually gentle, going along with her tone, letting her punch and kick him.
Ji Wushang cried, "Why, why have you forgotten me? You said, you said we'd meet again in the next life, and never forget this one! How could you forget our past!"
Tuoba Heyan was taken aback, and made a promise for the next life, but he would not forget this life.
So familiar, so familiar!
Looking at Ji Wushang's tear-filled eyes, he couldn't help but reach out to comfort her, whispering, "Your Majesty, Your Majesty... I remember, I remember." Is it too late to remember now? She said she would make a promise with him for the next life, and that she would not forget this one.