Young Prime Minister, a Hermit

Chapter 83

I nodded silently, tears falling into the soil, but my steps didn't slow at all: 'Just like I have no right to blame you for anything. It was my own choice to want your help, my own choice to fulfill your dreams, my own choice to be used by you. All that pain, humiliation, and grievance should have been cleared up when I decided to do this. I have no right to vent my anger on you.'

A flash of white light suddenly appeared before my eyes, and I saw Zi Mo's indistinct body right in front of me. He slowly stepped forward, and I was startled and about to step back when he suddenly shouted, "Don't move." In that moment of hesitation, his body had already merged with mine. My heart was pounding. Even though there was supposed to be no solid object, I felt a warm sensation flowing through my entire body.

Zi Mo said softly, "Galan, I've never told you this, but I've been very happy this past year with you. Sometimes, watching you foolishly jump into other people's traps, I was furious; watching you ruin yourself for a man who wasn't worth it, I felt both heartbroken and helpless; watching you grow under my guidance, I felt very proud. I drifted aimlessly outside the Nine Heavens, almost forgetting joy and sorrow, only filled with deep-seated hatred. You helped me calm down, you let me hear the voice of humanity again, you let me know that I still have love and hate. Galan, perhaps even I didn't expect this past year to be so happy. Thank you."

Tears streamed down my face, soaking it completely. Zi Mo gently stepped back a few paces, looking at me with tender eyes: "Alright, let's go now. Since you love Feng Yihan, love him steadfastly and don't let anything shake you. He... is a man worthy of your love."

"Yes!" I nodded vigorously. "Zimo, don't worry, whether you want to unify the world or destroy the Jinyao Kingdom, I will definitely help you. Ah... wrong." I smiled awkwardly. "Actually, you should be the one helping me; I'll only cause you trouble. But even so, as long as you stay by my side to teach and remind me, one day I will become a more capable young prime minister than Lin Yu. Zimo, what do you say?"

Zi Mo still looked at me with a gentle smile, a smile that was clear and bright, tinged with a faint sadness. He closed his eyes briefly, concealing the glint in them, and said, "Let's go! I hope Feng Yihan can arrive in time to meet us."

"Take three steps east, then keep walking straight ahead and you'll be out." Zi Mo had barely finished speaking when I immediately obeyed. The sound of water was indeed far away, and the dense bamboo grove was just ahead. I was panting heavily, but my heart gradually calmed down. Why was I so afraid? Even though Yu Fei had become strange, he was still Yu Fei; he couldn't possibly really hurt me, could he? But why did I feel a fear of him that seemed innate, an inability to resist the urge to run away and the trembling in my body? Maybe it was because Lin Yu and Liu Cenfeng had something happen between them, or maybe…

"Galan, watch out!!" Zimo shouted in alarm. Before I could even look up to see what was going on, a dark shadow suddenly loomed over me, and I crashed into a hot, stiff embrace.

“Lanlan…” A pair of deep blue eyes tinged with crimson looked at me with a smile, cold and mocking, “I forgot to tell you, I’ve long lost my patience.”

"Yufei..." I looked at him in horror, struggling to run away, when suddenly my wrists throbbed with pain. He smiled, put my hands behind my back, and then untied my belt, binding me tightly around the waist. He then bent down, picked me up, and carried me into the maple forest.

"Yufei, let me go! Are you really the Nie Yufei I know?!" I struggled and screamed in his arms, but he ignored me and moved quickly. Later, he simply untied the rope that tied my hair and tied my feet up as well.

I stared at the stunningly beautiful face before me, a faint smile never fading from his eyes. How terrifying! How terrifying! I trembled uncontrollably, unable to even shed a tear. Was this really Yufei? Was he really the chubby, frank Nie Yufei? I choked out, "Yufei, please don't be like this. The person I love is Yihan, I will never fall for you."

He went into the stone house without closing the door and simply threw me onto the bed in the inner room. He then rummaged through the drawers for a while, pulled out a bottle of medicine, opened it, sniffed it, and a satisfied expression appeared on his face. He then walked towards me with the medicine.

A string snapped in my mind, and the image of that glass of juice that almost ruined my life flashed before my eyes. I screamed in utter terror, "What is that?! What are you trying to give me to drink?! No...no! No—!!"

Liu Cenfeng scooped me up in his arms, who was bound like a dumpling, and said helplessly, "Why are you so scared?"

"No—! Don't—! Shao Junyi, don't come near me!" I shook my head, tears streaming down my face, my voice hoarse and desperate, "Don't come near me!"

"Lanlan! Lanlan!" Liu Cenfeng shook me violently, shouting in my ear, "Wake up! Look who I am!"

My scream turned into sobs, the blurry tears cleared, and I saw Liu Cenfeng's fair and delicate face, her brows furrowed slightly, like distant mountains, as she asked, "Who is Shao Junyi?"

The lingering fear I once felt had transformed into a profound dread. I shrank back into the bed, and when I looked up, I saw Zimo's sorrowful face. A sharp jolt ran through me. Suddenly, all the fear and pain of the past seemed insignificant. I had promised Zimo I would be strong and grow, hadn't I? I was no longer the naive, cowardly Lin Jialan who only knew how to cry, had I? But how was I any different from the me who had just panicked and screamed?

I blinked, looked at the medicine bottle in Liu Cenfeng's hand, and asked, "Is this for me to drink?"

Liu Cenfeng nodded, but the doubt in his eyes had not subsided, clearly still lingering on the name Shao Junyi.

I asked again, "What kind of medicine is this?"

Liu Cenfeng tilted his head and looked at me, seemingly frowning and thinking for a long time before saying, "Lanlan should know that there are birth control pills in modern times."

I stared at him wide-eyed, and he smiled sweetly: "This is a drug that's the opposite of birth control pills, it can give you a greater chance of getting pregnant with my child."

"You... what did you say?!" Despite telling myself hundreds of times to stay calm, I still yelled, "You want me to get pregnant with your child?! Nie Yufei, are you crazy?!"

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Liu Cenfeng leaned against the headboard, propping his head up, and looked at me with a half-smile: "I only have a little over a year left to live. What's so strange about wanting the woman I like to get pregnant with my child?"

After saying that, he grabbed my hair and, without any mercy, poured the entire bottle of medicine into my mouth. The icy liquid went down my throat, and I shook my head desperately, but I still swallowed most of it. The intense discomfort made me cough uncontrollably.

After Liu Cenfeng finished administering the medicine, his movements immediately became gentle. He patted my back softly, his tone tinged with concern: "Is your body really that weak? Have you been taking good care of yourself?"

He lifted my head, carefully wiping the water from the corner of my mouth. His warm, smooth hand gently caressed my cheek, then suddenly leaned in and kissed me fiercely. My lips were captured, sucked and rubbed in various ways, the pain numbing my senses. I clenched my teeth tightly, refusing to let go even when I was breathless. He finally lost patience, reaching out to pinch my chin, applying a sharp, numbing force. A tingling, aching sensation shot through my jaw, and I groaned softly. My teeth loosened, and his tongue deftly slipped inside, ravaging my mouth fiercely and aggressively. It was an incredibly forceful, deep kiss, as if he wanted to set me on fire.

He finally released me. My lips were numb and painful, and a feeling of despair swept over my entire body—a familiar pain and fear. My hands and feet ached from the ropes binding them, and suddenly, in a hoarse voice, I asked, "Yufei, what did you do to Linyu?"

Liu Cenfeng, catching his breath, looked at me with his crimson eyes and a smile more terrifying than a devil's curled at the corner of his mouth: "What, finally remembered?"

He gently pulled me into his arms, his long, slender fingers brushing against my neck as he ripped open my coat. He chuckled casually, "Lanlan, you'll never learn your lesson in front of me. No matter how many times we start over, you'll always end up in my hands. It's because you feel guilty towards me, it's because you... owe me your life."

“However!” His fingers traced light circles on my collarbone, his voice low and husky, “This time I don’t want to kill you. Rather than have you die with me, it seems more interesting to have you bear my child!”

I shuddered, staring at him in shock. "You... what did you say?" Something swirled in my mind, peeling back layers of fog. I knew, very soon, the truth was about to be revealed. But...

"So, you didn't know?" Liu Cenfeng pulled off my coat, looked up at me with a doting yet helpless smile in his eyes, "You silly little thing, aren't you surprised that a letter from Fan Zhong a year ago would make Lin Yu travel all the way here?"

"This...this place?"

"Hmm~" Liu Cenfeng poked my face helplessly and laughed, "That's because I asked him to deliver this letter. There was only one sentence in the letter: 'Lan, I miss you!' Oh, and it also included two maple leaves with maps drawn on them, just like the ones you received yesterday and today."

A loud buzzing sound erupted in my head, like an alarm bell ringing in my skull. Facts... what are facts? What... is the truth?

Liu Cenfeng smiled slightly and gently kissed my forehead, saying, "The truth is, the medicine I gave you that time didn't kill you, but it made you lose your memory. You went from being Qin Luo, who was afraid of me, back to being the innocent and foolish Lin Jialan, full of gratitude and guilt towards me."

You transformed from Qin Luo, who was terrified of me, back into Lin Jialan, innocent and foolish, filled with gratitude and guilt towards me...

I couldn't hear anything around me; the sweltering heat swirled around my temples, relentlessly assaulting my throbbing head. I laughed, a foolish, ugly laugh, my lips parting as I asked, "You mean, I am Lin Yu, and Lin Yu is me?"

I know I'm asking a question, but I can't hear my own voice. I know Liu Cenfeng must have answered something, but I still can't hear it.

Yi Han said, "Young master, you are just repeating the same path you took before."

Zi Mo said, "Galan... one day, you will no longer need me... one day, you will turn back..."

What will I become again? I slowly came to my senses and looked at those brown eyes with sadness and pleading. Zi Mo was still smiling faintly. He said, "Galan, one day you will become the real Lin Yu again."

Xiao Yi

2007.12.21 19:08

Chapter 57: Obsessed with Love and Hate (End)

I wonder how many people guessed that Garan is Lin Yu? And how did you guess? ^_^