Young Prime Minister, a Hermit

Chapter 196

The left hand around my waist tightened, while the right hand pressed against the pinch marks on my neck grew increasingly hot. Yi Han slowly moved his right hand, stroking my soft, slightly curly hair.

His face drew closer and closer, his purple pupils like two roaring vortexes, waiting to engulf me, waiting to condemn me to eternal damnation. His breath was hot, ragged, and heavy, slowly and tormentingly spraying onto my face with his hoarse voice: "Lin Yu, from this day forward, I will love you, possess you… completely possess you!"

Burning lips descended upon me, a kiss as if to tear me apart, more brutal, more forceful, more frantic than ever before. My whole body ached, I was in excruciating pain, yet my heart unexpectedly softened and ached.

This man who finally used his clear, hoarse voice to express his dissatisfaction and anger, this man who was in so much pain that he was terrified and waited until he was desperate, this man who repeatedly tolerated and pampered me but ended up hurting himself—how could I not love him, how could I let go? Yi Han, do you know that no matter how cold, ruthless, or heartless you pretend to be, if you can't hide the tenderness in your eyes, how can you fool me?

I reached up to his bladder and gently returned his kiss, our tongues entwining, expressing my love and determination in this unique way. No matter what I had promised Xu Lie, who was in grave danger, no matter how important the child in my womb was to me, no matter how the scales of our relationship had tilted or wavered, this one commitment was something I had never changed and would never change.

Yihan, I love you! I love you so much! So please believe me, I truly want to spend my life with you, no one else, only... my whole life.

In the heat of the moment, I pushed Yihan away. He was breathing rapidly, his eyes were glazed, and his angry expression made it clear he wanted to strangle me. I quickly took a few steps back to keep a safe distance from him. Although I was determined to be with him, I would never do anything that would harm the child in my womb.

Yi Han, his face dark with anger, roared at me, "Why are you pregnant with his child?!"

I flinched, thinking to myself: You really thought you wouldn't ask? This kind of thing must be hard for a man to bear, just like Xu Lie would hate me so much he wanted to strangle me when he saw the hickey on my neck. Yi Han's anger is even more intense than his.

I was unsure how to explain it, struggling to find the right words, but I knew I had to make it clear. Otherwise, this would become a permanent rift between us.

"At that time, the water chain broke, and when I woke up, I forgot everything about this place. I often see the battlefield in my dreams, and the back of a silver-haired man. I feel lost every day, always feeling that something extremely important is missing from my heart."

Yi Han coldly interrupted me: "Get to the point."

I choked a little, inwardly thinking how clever I was. I thought those kind words would let me get away with it. Actually, I didn't want to think about that day anymore. I didn't feel disgusted, but I felt sad and lonely. Especially when I thought about the person who orchestrated this, now lying dying in the hospital.

I pursed my lips, struggling to speak: "That day, I got drunk, Xu Lie... When I woke up, I couldn't remember anything, I just felt pain all over my body..."

"Stop talking!" Yi Han suddenly reached out and pulled me into his arms, his voice trembling slightly with pity and heartache. "Forget it, Lin Yu. I don't want to know anything, as long as you stay by my side. I don't care about the past!"

I pressed my face against his chest, listening to his steady and powerful heartbeat. It was as if time had suddenly stood still, and it felt like forever, with only the two of us.

However, in this tranquil and gentle atmosphere, I thought of Xu Lie in the hospital, his head shaved and his body covered in tubes. Tears welled up uncontrollably, and I hugged Yi Han tightly, my voice hoarse as I said, "Xu Lie, he's dying."

Yi Han's body stiffened slightly, and he tightened his grip on my arms, as if he was afraid that if I said those words, I would immediately disappear from his embrace.

I saw those hands again, tearing at my heart with ferocious force, snapping it in two. I heard myself groan in anguish: "Yihan, I never thought of starting over with him, I never thought of leaving you. But now he's dying, and I don't know what to do."

I never imagined that someone as strong as Xu Lie would one day lie in such a wretched state in the hospital. I never thought that, even when I hated him the most, I would do what I would do if he died.

Yi Han's hands trembled slightly as he held me, his embrace growing cold. After a long silence, he asked in a hoarse voice, "So... you're planning to stay by his side?"

"I..." No! My lips opened and closed for a long time, but I couldn't utter those two simple words. It felt like an invisible hand was choking my throat. I seemed to hear my own hoarse voice saying to Xu Lie with unwavering certainty, "We're waiting for you to come back! My child and I are waiting for you to come back!" That lie, which sounded like a vow, deceived Xu Lie, deceived everyone present, but why did I even deceive myself?

Yi Han abruptly stood up, his tall frame staggering slightly. His eyes held unbelievable pain and anger, and in my silent slumber, despair crept into every breath he exuded. All his joy and anger transformed into a chilling indifference as he turned and left.

However, after taking only one step, I had to turn around. He looked down at my hand clutching his sleeve; my thin, pale fingers, pressed against the dark purple stripes of his dark shirt, looked exceptionally fragile. Fragile, trembling incessantly, yet stubbornly refusing to let go.

"Let go!" Yi Han shouted sternly.

I gripped him tightly, tears streaming down my face, staining his wide, dark sleeves. My fingers were stiff and cold, my head was burning, my body was hot, and I had no strength left, but I knew I couldn't let go, I absolutely couldn't let go!

"What exactly do you want?!" Yi Han grabbed my hand tightly, his grip so strong it almost crushed my wrist. "Lin Jialan, I've given you everything you wanted, what more do you want from me?!"

"No..." I lowered my head, my vision blurred, tears still dripping onto his sleeve, onto my stiff, trembling fingers. "Don't let me go... Yihan! Please... don't let me go!"

Heaven may not grow old, but love will never sever. My heart is like a double-stranded net, with a thousand knots within. I look around and count them, and on each knot is clearly branded your name—Feng Yihan. Feng Yihan, do you know, I can abandon everything, but I would never want to lose you!

My hoarse, choked voice, like someone drowning and about to suffocate, echoed in the empty palace. It carried despair, pain, unspeakable exhaustion, and the thought that my breath might stop at any moment.

Yi Han grabbed my chin, forcing me to look up. His dark purple eyes were like sharp swords, as if he wanted to cut me open and examine my heart. Anger, disappointment, pity, and heartache swirled in his eyes, finally turning into a surging tide that overwhelmed all his emotions.

He pushed me onto the bed, ripped off my clothes, his movements gentle yet forceful, leaving no room for resistance. His delicate kisses lightly enveloped my entire body, yet were merely the touch of soft lips, leaving no trace.

"Do you know who's touching you?" Yi Han asked sharply in a hoarse, deep voice. "Do you know who's kissing you, hugging you?" His rapid breathing and hoarse voice sounded like the screams of a soul teetering on the edge of despair. "Am I loving too humbly? That's why you think I'm willing to share your love with someone else? Lin Yu, listen carefully! I want you, I want you completely! Your heart can only hold me, your eyes can only look at me! If even this kind of love has to be shared with someone else, then I'd rather... have nothing at all!"

I shook my head desperately beneath him, tears streaming down my face, holding him tightly, kissing his bare chest, kissing his firm bones. I couldn't express whether I was moved or saddened; I only knew that I would never let go of this man. Deceiving Xu Lie, losing Xu Lie might hurt me, but just thinking about leaving Yi Han forever made me feel as if the whole world was collapsing.

"Yihan...only you..." I embraced his burning body, silently but resolutely swearing, "In this life...only you! No one else!"

The sky outside the window is gradually turning white; the sun is about to rise from the east, and it's a brand new day.

The next day, I finally understood why Yihan had become so frantic and haggard. It turned out that I had only spent one day in the modern world, but seven days had passed in this world. This difference was outrageous; it felt like one day in the modern world was equivalent to a thousand years in ancient times. Perhaps one day I would return, still young and vibrant, only to find Yihan already buried. Moreover, Lin Jialan's body was indeed suffering from the strain of being transported to both worlds. Therefore, from any perspective, she should be reincarnated as soon as possible.

When I saw Yu Lin's body again, I was stunned for a long time. First, it was like looking at my own face in a mirror, yet I knew clearly that it was a corpse; second, five years had passed, but Yu Lin's body was clearly still the same as it was in the winter of 768 Wanli. Although his face was pale, he showed no signs of aging. He was just like that handsome young man with a feather fan and a turban, full of vigor and ambition.

Yunyan's medical skills were undoubtedly superb. Even when faced with a corpse, she could still open it up and repair Lin Yu's internal organs to the most perfect degree.

I still remember the first time I told her that treating illness involved cutting open a person's abdomen and head to remove necrotic tissue; she screamed in terror, saying I was crazy. But now, seeing her calm and skillful technique, she clearly handles such surgical procedures with ease.

I felt a moment of tension when I saw the blue water chain on Lin Yu's wrist. As Yi Han helped me to the bed where the "corpse" was placed, the blue light on the water chain flickered with each step we took, neither quite blue nor quite purple.

I closed my eyes and silently recalled what Chi Fei had said: it was just exchanging water chains, a very simple matter! Yun Yan was looking at me nervously, her hands clenched tightly, her face slightly pale. I gave her a bright smile.

Releasing Yihan's icy hand, I gently stroked his equally cold face, meeting his dark purple eyes, gazing straight into his heart, unyielding: "Yihan, it's only you. There will never be anyone else between us. Please believe me!"

Yi Han looked at me intently, a weak and painful smile appearing in his eyes. Suddenly, he leaned down and gently kissed me: "I'll wait for you to open your eyes."

I nodded vigorously, tears welling up in my eyes. I reached out and grasped Lin Yu's hand; though cold and stiff, it was still slender and smooth, just as it had always been. I smiled; time flowed by like water, sometimes moving forward, sometimes backward, slowly passing before my eyes. I closed my eyes, grabbed the water chain on her wrist and pulled it over, simultaneously slipping my own water chain onto her wrist.

Unsurprisingly, I saw Chi Fei again, dressed in fiery red, with handsome features, his enormous wings fluttering gently in the white mist. He resembled an angel, yet was even more beautiful than the angels in the paintings—truly worthy of being called the son of God!

Chi Fei looked me up and down for a long time, then sighed, "Lin Yu, do you know that I gave you the chance to choose a body because I wanted you to escape the fate of being a divine child? I never expected that you would still choose Qin Luo."

"Yes!" I sighed, then smiled faintly. "A beginning is also an end. I never imagined that after going through so much, I'd end up back where I started. Chifei, thank you so much for giving me the opportunity to choose! However, I've made my decision..."

I reached out my hand to him, looking directly into that fiery red glow, my smile both gentle and graceful yet bold and unrestrained: "I have decided to use these hands to end this chaotic world. No matter how much my efforts may achieve, no matter the outcome, I will have no regrets!"

"Chifei, would you be willing to help me?" I asked him with a smile. "To make up for the weaknesses in my character, to eliminate my hesitation when making choices, and to give me wisdom, luck, and unwavering will. Chifei, would you be willing to create a brand new world with me?"