She immediately knelt before Nan Xuzong's grave, crying out, "Cong!"
Beigong Minhao sighed inwardly as he watched, while Hongfei, Cuiwu, and the other servants all shed tears.
Bei Gongminhao's eyes were red. He took out a letter from his pocket and silently placed it in front of Ji Wushang. Ji Wushang was surprised. He said, "Fourth Imperial Concubine, this is what the Fourth Prince asked me to give to you."
Ji Wushang looked surprised and immediately took the letter and quickly opened it.
Beigong Minhao stood up again and looked at the servants around him. "Let's go, let them... have a chat."
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☆、298 He's mine in life, and he's mine in death! (Must read!)
298. I never knew what longing was, but now that I do, I am consumed by it.
Ji Wushang didn't care whether they left or not. Nan Xuzong actually sent him a letter, which meant that he had known all along that this would happen?
Ji Wushang's hands began to tremble.
As I opened the letter, the bold, flowing handwriting came into view. It was a familiar script, and it felt as if he were right beside me, speaking to me.
"My dearest Wushang, when you see this letter, it means that I can no longer keep our vows, and I can no longer stay by your side to take care of you for the rest of my life."
Please forgive my departure.
Even though I am extremely reluctant to part with it.
I... have always loved you more than my own life. Because you are my everything.
Wu Shang, when I first saw you, it was during the season of falling flowers. At that time, you were as beautiful as a graceful swan. I sighed, "There is no beauty more beautiful than this." I felt that I was disabled and dared not have any extravagant thoughts about any woman. As for you, the eldest daughter of the General's Mansion, I, Nan Xu Cong, dared not covet even a little.
Yes, I possess formidable martial arts skills, but no one knows the lowly and humble life I lead. My mother was a former princess, of considerable status, yet she abandoned me early on. I began practicing martial arts at the age of four, but due to the accident I told you about when I was seven, my legs became paralyzed, confining me to a wheelchair. I can endure whatever the world thinks of me. Back then, my purpose in life was to find out the cause of my birth mother, Consort Zhenrong's, death, and to uncover the truth behind those who crippled me, and to bring those responsible to justice.
My master, the old man who teaches medicine, has taught me many things. What I haven't told you is that the reason I agreed to go to the banquet at the Prince of Zhenbei's mansion with Beigong Minhao was because I heard what my master said. My master said that there is a woman whose blood can heal my legs. If I am willing to try, I can borrow her blood.
Just then, Bei Gongminhao, my cousin (the Princess of Zhenbei is my paternal aunt), asked me to come to the Zhenbei Prince's Mansion to have a drink with him. He had just returned from his travels, and I hadn't seen him for many years.
Therefore, I attended the banquet.
My master never told me which woman's blood could help heal my legs, but somehow, I was drawn to you.
Your half-sister plotted against you. I love the stubbornness in your eyes, so I helped you by remotely striking your pressure points to create an opportunity for you. How clever you are! I am amazed by your retaliatory methods and intelligence.
And you, your performance on stage broke my heart.
Those who know me say I am worried; those who do not know me ask what I seek.
To find a true friend is to find a soulmate. Wu Shang, do you know that what you sang was exactly what I felt in my heart? The world doesn't understand me, they fear me, they despise me, they hate me, they want to kill me, but no one understands me.
I'm wondering, is it you? You appeared in my life.
I gradually became deeply attracted to you.
That falling petals were the first image I captured when I unexpectedly saw you. My golden threads were wrapped around your body. I saw the stubbornness and grievance in your eyes, and I couldn't bear it. But my soul slowly sank into you.
If I were a person with both legs intact, I would definitely try my best to pursue you. But at that time, I knew that you were so far away, like a beautiful star in the sky, while I was like mud on the ground.
I miss you. I'm willing to entrust my feelings to books, so I've recorded my longing for you.
I never knew what longing was, but now that I do, I am consumed by it.
That's roughly what it means!
Perhaps Heaven took pity on me, Nan Xuzong, for my life of suffering and despair, and then you suddenly appeared, lighting a beacon on my path. I am grateful to Heaven for bringing you into my life, making me realize that there is another layer of meaning to this life.
I want to protect you, I want to have you, I want to be by your side, to spend spring, summer, autumn and winter with you, to count the stars in the sky with you, and to walk with you through the years of life.
I never knew you could fascinate me so much. Wu Shang, even if I were to be as insignificant as dust, I would still be willing to silently stay by your side.
I unexpectedly met you on the carriage, and saw you buying jade and glass at Yuming Hall. I felt that life is so wonderful. If I could see you for even one day, it would be the happiest day of my life.
I look forward to seeing you every day. But I am so worried about the impact it will have on your reputation.
On your father's birthday, I inadvertently stumbled upon your singing, "Wu Shang," where you, under the moon, are no longer the same as before; too many wounds, hard to express; a sigh, "Back then, I thought it was just ordinary." May I say that I remember your appearance under the moon, and may your wounds be opened to me? For the first time, I felt as if my breath had been stolen by you. If I hadn't intruded unintentionally, perhaps I would never have known that your heart could be so desolate.
But I, Nan Xuzong, truly want to warm your heart.
But is it possible?
Looking back, I'm so glad I saw into your heart that it beat for me too, and I was overjoyed. The days we spent together, loving each other, were few, but I was incredibly happy.
During the Mid-Autumn Festival, I met you in the City God Temple and in the library of the Yuanyue Nunnery. It all seemed like fate had created opportunities for us. I thank God for letting you appear in my life.
If our relationship was able to break through, I have to thank your fourth sister. If it weren't for her scheming against my second brother, I wouldn't have known that I would be able to see you.
That night, I didn't take your body, but I received the most important thing in my life: you gave me your heart.
My heart trembled. I asked myself then, could I give you everything you want? Did I have that ability? I am that useless Prince Nan, confined to a wheelchair! My life may never be able to stand again, and your life will be stained with everything I have… Wu Shang, you asked, I will give you happiness, right? I will. I, Nan Xu Cong, will only give you happiness in this life. If anyone bullies you, I will punish them a thousandfold; if anyone dares to disrespect you, I will make them taste all the bitterness of life!
Wu Shang, I will never know how deep my love for you is, but I am so afraid of losing you!
I want everything from you.
I didn't know Minho liked you too. When I found out, I locked myself in a secret room. I wondered, could I give you to him? In terms of status and position, I am merely the heir of the Marquis of Jinnan, while he is the heir of the Prince of Zhenbei. In terms of talent and martial arts, I am roughly equal to him and could even hold my own. However, I am disabled and cannot compare to him.
But I see your heart. If you like him, I will definitely step aside and let you be with him. But what I see is that you have me in your heart. How can I give up? Minho is my brother. I swore back then that I would give him whatever he wanted. But you are the only one. You are unique to me. I cannot let anyone share you with me.
Besides, we've shared a bed, and I promised you I would take care of you and make you happy. How can I break my promise?
At that time, we were practically enemies, but I never regretted it.
I asked my grandmother for help. My grandmother loves me dearly; if it weren't for her compassion and protection, I, Nan Xuzong, would probably not be living like this! She is the elder I want to honor for the rest of my life…
"Wu Shang, now I entrust Grandmother to your care. She is a solitary Buddhist who finds peace in solitude. I know you love Buddhist scriptures. If you have time, Wu Shang, please spend more time with her, okay?"
Upon seeing this, Ji Wushang covered her face and cherry lips, sobbing softly. Her eyes were blurred with tears as she continued reading.
"This marriage is something I never imagined in my life. I am overjoyed. I like you, I love you, and I hope to take care of you for the rest of my life! I thought everything would go smoothly, but I never expected that such a thing would happen."
The King of the Western Regions, Yiyun Shangcheng, is the chieftain of the Yiyun tribe. He is very likely the legendary immortal of the Yiyun tribe. I read this in my master's book. I never expected that I would encounter such an opponent!
But I never expected that he would try to control you with his mind. I'm frantic with worry, but I'm completely helpless! How much I love you, how much I miss you! I love you and adore you.
He wants to use you to kill me. I accept my fate. I'd rather die by your hand than hurt you in the slightest!
Your dagger pierced my chest, it hurts so much, but what hurts me even more is that I cannot break the Western Regions King's plan!
But thankfully, I was able to marry you. At that moment, I told myself I would no longer hide my strength! Because I wanted to show everyone that you married a man worthy of marriage, a man who could shelter you from the storm and create everything you wanted for yourself!
But I started to worry about you because I could feel the coldness in your body. I learned from my master that it was your blood that could help heal my legs, because your body is naturally cold, a body of ice that has been frozen for thousands of years, which can help freeze my necrotic nerves and spare me the pain of treatment.
But how could I possibly let you be so afraid?
At that time, I mistakenly believed that the Demon Lord was about to be born, and that he needed my blood as a sacrifice! I was afraid of this fate, and I swore that even if I went against the heavens, I would break this predetermined fate! The heavens wanted to follow the way, but I insisted on defying the heavens and fighting against them!
Wu Shang, how could I let you suffer even the slightest harm?
Many things happened around us after that, and I can't forget them.
The birthday banquet you meticulously prepared for me, I will remember it to this day! You are my wife, my Wushang.
I have never held a birthday banquet because... I am a good-for-nothing and do not deserve it! Everyone knows that in the capital, the only one who has not held a birthday banquet after turning thirty is the Southern Heir of the Marquis of Jinan!
Wu Shang, thank you for the surprise you prepared for me. Your words, "If you will not abandon me, I will be with you until death," are deeply etched in my memory. How could I possibly abandon you? Even if I die, I will be by your side, and my soul will forever protect you! Wu Shang, Wu Shang…
What I hate is that I couldn't protect everything about you in time! I want all of you!
Wu Shang, do you know my heart?
During the Lantern Festival, the lotus lantern still runs in the opposite direction. I am deeply worried about our future, and I am afraid that I will not be able to continue walking with you.
I wish we could all live long and healthy lives. How I so desperately long for that!
You knelt down and begged Beigong Minhao to heal my legs, so why did you keep everything from me? Why did you all conspire to hide it from me alone? I'd rather never stand up again than let you suffer this injustice!
Because of the treatment for my legs, Minho almost died at the hands of the Western Region King, and you, almost left me forever... Wushang, I can't bear the days without you. You are my heart. If you leave, my heart will be gone.
Wu Shang, please don't be so foolish in the future, okay? I'm not worth you sacrificing so much for me. Just being happy behind me is enough.
Minho and Jueshi have sacrificed so much for us; I'm afraid I'll owe them a debt of gratitude for the rest of my life.
But the person I owe the most in this life is you!
Later, I learned from my master that your story and mine are the same story as that of the Demon Lord Blood Lotus and the God of War. On the mural my master showed me, I saw your past, your present, and some of our future.
You... died once.
I couldn't help but shed tears as I watched. Wu Shang, what did it feel like to have those nails driven into your bones, inch by inch? I would rather have suffered such torture myself! I don't understand why you had such an experience. I finally understand why you said back then that you had always hated everyone in the Marquis's mansion... "always," this "always" has troubled me for a long time, and at that moment, I finally understood just how long this "always" had been.
Looking at that mural, I felt an intense hatred for my own powerlessness! Because I was so close to you then! Your coffin was right in front of me! You died right before my eyes! Because of my useless legs, even those maids and servants didn't take me seriously!
No wonder, when I first saw you, I felt that you looked very familiar. We have probably looked back at each other for five hundred years, no, it should be a thousand years!
From the beginning of the love story between the God of War and the Demon Lord, this is our ninth lifetime. Buddha said that we need to cultivate for ten lifetimes before we can be together.
I'm not afraid of waiting another lifetime to be with you; what I fear is you dying in front of me again.
I couldn't let you suffer such pain... At that time, I was already prepared to die.
If only one of us could choose to live, I would choose you to live, and live well for me.
All the good deeds I've done in this life are for the chance to be with you. If this life ends like this, let's make a promise to never forget this life in our next life.
"Wu Shang, let's make a promise for another lifetime, okay? By then, we'll have cultivated for ten lifetimes, and no one will be able to stop us from loving and staying together."
Ji Wushang was crying, her whole body covered in tears, but Nan Xuzong's letter was very long. She sobbed and turned to the next page.
“I saw in the mural that you would stand with the King of the Western Regions and oppose me. I’m afraid this will happen. I’m worried and anxious. I once asked my master if everything in the mural would continue as it is.”
He said, "Yes. No one can change that."
At first I didn't believe it, but... in the end I had to believe it.
You were unintentionally poisoned by the Western Region King's Heart-Eating Gu, but it was neutralized by the Heart-Protecting Pill that Bei Gong Minhao gave you and the baptism of the Blood Pool. However, I failed to notice that the Western Region King had actually poisoned me with the Heart-Eating Gu.
I know my days are numbered, and I don't ask for much. What I wish for is to spend my last days with you. I am willing to endure endless pain rather than watch you beg him.
So I chose to row out and be with you on the riverbank.
Those assassins were actually sent by me.
I wanted them to kill me without harming you. However, after what happened with the deposed Empress Yao and my second brother, I have to be on guard. I also know that I'm nearing my end, so I'll teach you my final sword technique.