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Let me hide away by myself

I never doubted your promise.

Repeatedly

If it weren't for the gentleness back then

After all, you're the person I love, how can I blame you?

Forgive the rainy day that took you away.

Before the gradually blurring window,

Everyone has to say goodbye eventually.

Forgive the eternity you took away.

A smile makes it easier to get through the day.

Maybe I'm just getting old.

Will you miss those days?

Longing is like a door that can't be closed tightly.

There's a happy kind of dust in the air.

Otherwise, why would one close their eyes when...

So painful

Don't tell anyone

Let me hide away by myself

I never doubted your promise.

Repeatedly

If it weren't for the deep love we once shared...

I tried to hate you, but then I remembered your smile…

Gu Ming, I really have no other choice. Today I saw a figure on the street that looked like you from behind. I dropped Xiao Bi and chased after him for a long time. The moment that person turned around, I knew I had done something stupid again. I stared at him and burst into tears, which scared him.

So, if I could, I would like to forget you...

It was still snowing on Christmas Day, December 25, 2005.

Today is the CET-4 and CET-6 exams. Although there was a Christmas atmosphere at school, the start of the exam bell and the English listening test broadcast on the radio made the Christmas feeling much less festive.

Deng Fei had already passed the CET-6 exam, while I had collected four CET-6 exam admission tickets after passing the CET-4 exam in my freshman year. Each time, my score hovered around 58, and I even got a spectacular 59.5 once.

Xiao Bi said he'd seen unlucky people, but never anyone as unlucky as me.

I ate two meat pies and a bowl of congee with preserved eggs for breakfast, and I was quite full, so I got dressed, put on my hat, and went for a stroll outside. The snow was still falling, and a soft layer had been added to the thick snow on the ground, making a funny crunching sound with every step.

There were few people on the street, probably because it was too early. I walked lazily, the crunching sound of the snow was so annoying. I restlessly kicked the snow like a child splashing in water, and then, with a stroke of luck, kicked a big rock hidden under the snow and fell to the ground like a tiger pouncing on its prey.

Just as I was marveling at how lucky I was, a pair of hands landed on my shoulders, and a familiar scent enveloped me. I froze, then shook my head, amused. Had I hit my head and was I hallucinating? How could he be beside me now…?

Aren't you getting up?

A laughing voice sounded above my head. I froze, my body trembling uncontrollably. I dared not look up, dared not get up. The hallucination was too real, so real that it frightened me.

"Did you hurt your leg?"

I shook my head, my body trembling even more violently. Why were the snow sprites playing tricks on me? I knew that if I looked up, I would only see cold snowflakes and empty streets.

"Get up quickly, the ground is too cold." The voice kept saying in my ear.

I shook my head violently, my hands bracing against the ground. My heart shattered in an instant, tears falling onto the snow. Go away, please go away! Stop disturbing my life every now and then. If you're going to leave, leave cleanly. Don't leave me with memories I can't erase. I can't take it anymore, I really can't bear it...

After a long while, there was indeed no more sound. I shook my numb hands and got up from the ground, but sat back down when I saw the person in front of me. Gu Ming, are you sent by heaven to play with me?

On December 26, 2005, I was more furious than God.

I feel like there's a fly buzzing around my head, and it's been buzzing nonstop since yesterday. That fly's name is Gu Ming.

He's not dead!

He's still alive!

I'm so angry! He's still alive!!!

Gu Ming hugged me and muttered in frustration, "You're saying that as if you're hoping I die."

I punched him in the stomach. "Of course I want you to die! Why don't you die? You've ruined my life. These past few months have been worse than death for me. If you really died, it would be worth it. But you're still alive. All my heartache has been for nothing!"

“Actually… I didn’t know I was still alive.” He tightened his arms around me, as if he wanted to strangle me. “I really thought that day was the last time I would see you. You don’t know, that night, I really used up all my magic power. If it weren’t for Xiaobai, I think I would still be dead now.”

"Xiao Bai?" Suddenly, I remembered that I hadn't heard from Xiao Bai since that night.

"She took me to Si Yan. By then, I was already dead, almost drained of blood. In the Fox King's words, I was just a dried-up corpse." Gu Ming chuckled behind me. "That Fox King is a high-ranking immortal. The Fu Yi affair was inextricably linked to him. When Xiao Bai took me there, he foresaw everything. Without saying a word, he spat out his Yuan Dan and forcefully pulled my soul up from the underworld. That night, we used forbidden magic to transfer my spirit from your forehead to mine. I also died an unnatural death, so my soul..." Even the sun couldn't linger in the mortal realm; it was dragged directly to the underworld. The Fox King intervened before I was punished and finally saved me. Unfortunately, I lost too much blood; even though my soul returned, I was lifeless. So, for the past few months, I've stayed with Si Yan. He fed me daily elixirs made from banyan flowers, morning dew, and his own immortal techniques. I lay in bed for five months, and then spent two months getting out of bed and walking to regain the function of my limbs. Once I was healed, the first thing I did was run out to find you, only to find you still wanted me dead.

"Gu Ming, does it hurt a lot?"

"kindness?"

"It must have hurt a lot back then, right? And it must have hurt a lot when they treated your wounds, right?"

"It doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt at all."

"Gu Ming".

"kindness?"

I miss you so much.

"I know."

I miss you so much I feel like I'm dying.

"I know."

Don't you think it's cheesy for me to say that?

I don't think so.

"But I got goosebumps myself."

"..."

Later, I asked Gu Ming if Xia Canyue knew he was still alive. Gu Ming said of course he knew, which made me so angry that I called Xia Canyue.

"Hello, who is it?"

"Summer's waning moon!"

"Oh, it's Xiao Mo."

"You bad person, why did you lie to me?"

What did I lie to you about?

You're saying Gu Ming is dead?

"Who said he's dead?"

"you!"

"I don't."

It's you!

"I don't."

“You came to see me a few days before you left, and you were crying and saying that Gu Ming was dead.”

"I didn't. When my Gu Ming was injured and sent to the Fox King, I was heartbroken. I wanted to tell you, but you said you knew everything. Later, I asked you if you wanted to go see him, and you so heartlessly shook your head and said no. Humph, you must have seen that my Gu Ming was injured and were afraid he wouldn't get better, so you wanted to get rid of the responsibility as soon as possible."

"..."

"I never uttered the word 'death' from beginning to end."

"..."

“I asked you to come to ‘Moonlight’ to pick up some things, and I wanted to persuade you to go see Gu Ming again, but who knew you would tell me to throw everything away.”

"..."

"Now that my Gu Ming is better, you're trying to frame me again."

"..."

"I'm so beautiful and you've wronged me. I cried so much my eyes are blurry, are you going to compensate me?"

"..."

I suddenly realized that I couldn't say a word.

Sunny on December 27, 2005

My mood has been fluctuating so much these past two days that it's almost unbearable. Xiao Bi said I've successfully transformed from a resentful woman into a little girl. Considering that my Gu Ming is back safe and sound, I won't hold it against him.

Xiao Bi, taking advantage of the situation, shouted at the top of her lungs, "Hey, 'my Gu Ming,' come and listen, when did you become hers?"

Gu Ming raised an eyebrow at Xiao Bi, "Xiao Mo said she has photos of you picking your nose and going to the toilet."