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I know that if Xiao Chenchen were alive, she would hate me to death, but she didn't lose out, she really didn't lose out. If she had witnessed, like me, how Xu Yi was obsessed with a portrait, she would know that the divine doctor, who didn't die for his wife, was destined to follow her in death...

Only those who have lost all willpower and choose to end their lives without a second thought.

So both the beautiful woman and I were completely fooled. The portrait that Xu Yi secretly kept under his bed, the one he might take out every night to console himself, was not the wife he had felt guilty about for most of his life, but... the beautiful Xiao Chenchen.

This is the real reason why Xu Yi feels so guilty. He can't talk to beautiful women, he restrains himself and doesn't even dare to look at them for too long, but he has committed emotional infidelity. He even admits to himself that he has betrayed them. So he can only deceive everyone without leaving a trace, but he can never deceive himself.

The aunt was unlucky; the uncle didn't love her. But Chenchen was the most unlucky. Before she died, she met a stubborn man who wouldn't admit it. After she died, she was denied by the whole world. The uncle said he didn't recognize her, and the whole world said they didn't recognize her either. But they couldn't say she never existed because I remember her. However, in the memories of everyone except me, she never appeared.

Therefore, even Li Shun, who escaped from the death ray in my eyes, suddenly felt relieved. The love triangle was broken. The three of us went into the mountains, and the three of us came out of the mountains. However, the person who pushed the flatbed cart to carry me and the divine doctor without complaint was changed from the beautiful Xiao Chenchen to the bald Li Shun.

Later, the monk continued to be a monk, or pretended to be a monk and continued his exile. When they parted, Xu Yi was not sad at all. On the contrary, he was extremely happy. He had never thought that he would be forgiven by anyone, so he was really happy. Over the next few days, he was incomparably happy.

But in my eyes, it turned into an unparalleled irony. Not long after, when I first met Xu Jinwan, she pulled me aside and said that the travel bag that I and the savage had left in the fireworks shop was taken away by the new owner of Liangfeng Manor two years ago. The new owner was also surnamed Shao and was Shao Yanhe's younger brother.

"What about the savage?" I asked.

“He’s dead.” Xu Jinwan said matter-of-factly. “Everyone in the world knows that Shao Yanhe, the leader of the martial arts alliance, has committed countless evil deeds. Four years ago, he committed murder and arson at the Nangong family’s residence. As the saying goes, those who do many evil deeds will surely perish. He was burned to death while setting the fire…”

"Bullshit!" I've always been wary of Xu Jinwan, but I still couldn't help but shove her. "Who said Shao Yanhe has done all sorts of bad things? Who said that? Who said that?!"

Xu Jinwan smiled helplessly, as if she understood me, as if she were closer to the inside story than others, "Who else is there? His younger brother, Shao Qingyou, upheld justice and even betrayed his own brother, issuing a proclamation to all the heroes of the world to denounce his brother's evil deeds. Now even the neighbors can name a few of them. Just how many good deeds has Shao Yanhe done..."

I stood at the foot of the wall. The sun was strong, but it didn't shine on me. Xu Jinwan's features were mature and defined, just like her. Her half-raised lips gave her a bright smile, which, when reflected in the morning glories beside her, made her look as beautiful as a morning glory.

I had so many questions. Where did this savage brother of mine come from? Was he stupid enough to ruin the reputation of his own family, the Shao clan, and even steal my character "Qing" as his name?

But none of that matters. If four years have passed and the savage has never appeared anywhere in those four years, I don't know if he's alive or dead. If he's alive, he's never come back to me. If he's dead, should I open that spacetime rift in my eyes at any cost?

Wild man, where have you been gallivanting off to...?

When I realized it, I had already left the welcome banquet that Xu Jinwan had arranged for Xu Yi. As I entered my room, I heard footsteps outside the door—"Sun Qingshan." Xu Yi was knocking on the door.

"I know you're in a good mood!" I flung the door open. "But I'm in a bad mood. You'd better disappear after three counts. One, two, three...!"

"Here you go." The other person was quite blunt, directly holding a bowl of medicine in front of me.

"What?" I frowned and looked at the unusually pale face behind the bowl, which was devoid of any color. The hands holding the bowl were also pale in contrast.

"Hangover soup," he replied. After I reached out and took the medicine, he stepped out and entered my room through the gap beside me.

"What exactly do you want?" I closed the door and turned around. He took two steps and happened to turn around as well.

Xu Yi pulled out a stool from the table and sat down. “I’ve heard something,” he said, “that I think you should know.”

"About the wild man?"

“That’s right.” He nodded. “...Next month, something big will happen at Liangfeng Manor. What do you think it will be?”

I glared at them. "How should I know?!"

“You can’t be unaware of this,” Xu Yi shook his head and smiled, “If you want to find Shao Yanhe, you must first see Shao Qingyou.”

...

After that, Xu Yi and I set off in a donkey cart, traveled by boat, and rode horses over mountains and valleys without stopping. Finally, I asked him, "Why do you insist on following me and showing your face in public?"

"I don't know," he replied. "Maybe I've been having a lot of free time lately..."

I waved my hand, "Uncle, didn't you say you liked following me?!"

“Perhaps…” He smiled and turned his head.

Even though neither of them confronted me directly, they both knew the root cause. Not long ago, I had a few too many drinks at Xu Jinwan's husband's house and went on a drunken rampage, hitting, cursing, kicking, and punching Xu Yi. I called him narrow-minded, vicious, vindictive, and good for nothing, and also called him selfish, arrogant, and self-righteous... Finally, I grabbed his collar, ripping and threatening him: Take me to find some savages, or I'll vomit in your clothes!

He was trying to coax me, and accidentally said a single word: "Okay."

Actually, when I used my drunkenness to commit the crime, he was just playing along. I know he wanted to repay me for carrying him through an underground stone passage, risking his life for me, but that doesn't prove he's kind. To be honest, I've known Xu Yi for quite some time, but our friendship is hard to quantify. I can say I'm friends with Xiao Chenchen, or even Xu Jinwan, but with Xu Yi, it doesn't even qualify as friendship.

It's always been either me who owes him, or him who owes me.

Ultimately, he was a person with very limited inner emotions, but he hated me. The feelings that developed from resentment cannot be considered feelings; they can only be considered debts.

I'm happy to have a miracle doctor by my side, and I want to keep an eye on him. Although Xiao Chenchen has completely disappeared, the place where a person's memories and emotions are located is unrelated to memories. If Xu Yi picks up a fruit knife and tries to commit suicide again one day, it doesn't matter if all my efforts have been wasted, he probably won't even understand what's wrong with him.

So I also had to talk him out of it, in order to distract myself—

I've heard that four years isn't a long time, but the total time I spent with the savage is less than a year. What if he changes his mind? Back then, without Shi Shenghuan, he could have met Sun Qingshan in the valley. Now that Sun Qingshan is gone, there are plenty of Zhang Qingshans, Wang Qingshans, Zhang Baishans, and Zhang Zishans on the streets...

Traveling by boat down the Yangtze River, the further south you go, the more familiar the scent of flowers in the air becomes, giving you a feeling of returning home.

As we disembarked, we heard people cursing along the way: "Serves you right for having a son like Shao Yanhe!!"

That's actually an insult, and its extended meaning is: "May you have a son who kills his mother and mistreats his brothers!"

"Who exactly is Shao Qingyou, and why is he trying to tarnish the reputation of the savages?" I asked Xu Yi through gritted teeth.

Xu Yize laughed, "Don't treat me like an expert in the martial arts world."

"I've always thought of you as a miracle doctor, okay?!"

The miracle doctor laughed again, "Thank you for your sunglasses and sunburn makeup. It is a bit strange, but I am no longer Xu Yi."

"Then," he glanced at him and asked with a smile, "who are you?"

“Hmm…” He thought for a moment and replied, “Your father.”

"Pah!!" I glared at him before I choked to death. "What kind of father would treat you like this? Are you crazy for a daughter?!"

“No,” he explained seriously, “a lone man and a lone woman traveling the world should have some explanation.”

“Then you can be my mother,” I retorted.

“Jin Wan didn’t prepare women’s clothing for me,” he said.

"Xu Yi".

"Um?"

"You are my uncle, and I am your niece."

He frowned and shook his head repeatedly. "Do you remember when you and Shao Yanhe were in danger on the cliff edge, and I kindly went to save you?"

“I remember,” I replied. “I remember you dressed like a slut.”

He continued to shake his head, "That's not the point... You should remember that you called me 'uncle' and told me you wanted to be my slave and work like a beast of burden. At that time, Shao Yanhe pulled you behind him. Do you know what he said to me then?"

"What did you say?" I was taken aback, recalling the scene at the time. Under the first clear sky outside the Savage Valley, I met the red-clad Doctor Xu for the first time with the Savages. At that time, in my impression, he was an absolute, slender, perverted, and transvestite.

"What are you trying to say?!" I pushed Xu Yi hard, making him gasp for breath at the crucial moment.

He said I couldn't accept it.

"What?"

“He said,” Xu Yi repeated, “—you can’t afford it.”

"Ah!" My mouth dropped open in an "O" shape. "Are these savages so rude?"

Xu Yi smiled bitterly.

"So you recognized him back then?"

I asked, "Why don't you ask him why he climbed up from the bottom of the mountain?"

Xu Yi was stunned for a moment, and then answered, "I didn't recognize him."

"You..." I almost choked on my breath, "Are you serious?"

“Really…” The divine physician was lost in thought, “Shao Yanhe is not that kind of person at all, how could I have imagined that he would appear there?”

"What kind of person is he?!" I seized the opportunity to ask quickly, "If you don't tell me this time, I'm confiscating your sunglasses!! There weren't many things left at your daughter's house to begin with, and Shao Qingyou even took the travel bag. The sunscreen was a trial size, and the cream was even ripped off by a beautiful woman with a strong force... Ah!" I bit my tongue, peeking cautiously to observe Xu Yi.

But he didn't react, only waving his hand and saying, "I said it, I said it..."

"Speak quickly!" I was at a loss for words.

“He is actually…” Xu Yi thought for a moment, “If you have met those righteous and awe-inspiring people who are not arrogant but humble and respectful, you can perhaps imagine what he is like.”

"No way..." I said with a falling face. "Savages aren't like that... Shouldn't he be a chosen one of heaven? Shouldn't he be passionate and fiery, or cold as ice, sometimes tender and charming, sometimes melancholic?"

"Endless melancholy?" Xu Yi laughed. "Have you been drinking too much lately and daydreaming too much?"

"What did you say?" I squinted. "Did I do something to you that you're making fun of me like this?!"

"Do you want to know what kind of person Shi Shenghuan is?" Xu Yi provoked me again.

"You know him?!" My eyes lit up. "You've met Shi Shenghuan?!"

He nodded. "I guess I've met you."

"Ah!" I yelled, "Wait a minute!!" I shouted, then took a deep breath, then inhaled, then exhaled—"So you knew everything, you damn transvestite!" I rolled my eyes, "I'll let you keep your secret and be happy—wait a minute!!" I took a long breath, clenched my fist, and focused my energy, "Alright! Tell me! Doesn't Shi Shenghuan look a lot like me?!"

Xu Yi was stunned. "What did you say?"

"I'm asking you, doesn't Shi Shenghuan look a lot like me?!"

Xu Yi chuckled, "Looking at it this way... it does look somewhat similar, doesn't it?"

"ah?!"

"Didn't that sedan chair carrier who just passed by look a lot like you?" Xu Yi continued to mock me.

"I'm not joking with you!" I said seriously. "To be honest, is Shi Shenghuan a beauty, or is she just incredibly knowledgeable, radiating intelligence from head to toe?"

"Ha," Xu Yi laughed, "A flash of brilliance, you'd rather she were a monster?"

I scoffed, thinking, "What's so great about a flash? You've even seen aliens with your own eyes!" But you've forgotten, and that's fine, it makes me laugh.

Lately, I feel like I've gotten so used to provoking savages that I feel a great sense of accomplishment whenever anyone tries to make him laugh. Unfortunately, Xu Yi isn't a savage; savages have much better smiles than him.

Later, when things got boring, Xu Yi just said directly that Shi Shenghuan was very serious, much more serious than him—besides that, she was the daughter of the martial arts alliance leader, and he couldn't see anything else that was more outstanding about her.

I'm speechless. Knowing that Xu Yi sees Xiao Chenchen every day, what outstanding qualities could he possibly see in her?!

That night, he stayed at an inn. Bored, he picked up a brush and ink and started drawing at the table. When I went to find him, I saw Xiao Chenchen in the drawing and almost collapsed to the ground.

"You, you, you..." I leaned on the edge of the table and said "you" three times in a row.

"Doesn't it look a lot like that painting?" Xu Yi asked me. "Do you know the people in the painting?"

"I don't know him!!" I shook my head firmly, but Xu Yi didn't seem upset at all, which I found strange.

I already feel guilty enough, towards him and towards Xiao Chenchen.

It's fair to say that everything right now was decided by me according to my own wishes. If I had left it alone, Xu Yi would definitely be dead by now. All I need is him, someone to accompany me out of that desolate mountain area, and someone to provide me with food and lodging, or to guide me before I encounter the savages.

Xu Yi is a living advertisement; his skill in treating and saving lives alone makes him priceless.