Une jeunesse errante

Chapitre 158

Does he love me? Yes, he loves me too.

So, the next problem is that I'm a man, I just look like a woman, and looking like a woman doesn't mean I am a woman, so I can't marry him. Therefore, I must reject him.

Kiyomi Tsuki suddenly stopped, and pain began to rip into his heart and intestines like a knife, plunging him into darkness.

Is that not allowed?

It looks like this won't work.

Since that's not working, I can't refuse him. If I don't refuse him, I'll have to marry him, but I'm a man, how can I marry him? God! Why am I back to square one?

Kiyomi Tsuki scratched her head in extreme frustration.

The morning light, shifting and captivating, illuminated the vast grassland, and countless dewdrops sparkled like diamonds. From the shadows of the trees came the chirping of birds, first a single note, then a thousand, ten thousand in a chorus. A thought struck Kiyomizuki; she clapped her hands, and countless birds took flight with a whoosh. A surge of excitement welled up in Kiyomizuki's heart, and she clapped vigorously; countless pairs of wings stretched out, and in the blink of an eye, they transformed into a vast expanse of soaring, colorful clouds in the sky.

As Kiyomi Tsuki gazed at the birds soaring freely between the blue sky and green grass, her eyes shone brightly, and her heart soared like those birds.

Calm down! Kiyomi Tsuki, you need to calm down. If you don't reject him now, things will only get more complicated. Make a decision! Yes. Kiyomi Tsuki, make up your mind.

From afar came the thunderous sound of hooves, followed by the roar of flames, which elicited a response from Feiyun. Qingjian Yue hurried a few steps forward and saw Lu Qingcheng dismount. Tears welled up in Qingjian Yue's eyes, and everything else was instantly forgotten. Lu Qingcheng opened his arms, and behind him, flames and Feiyun galloped happily side by side.

Like a fledgling swallow returning to its nest, Qing Jianyue flew into Lu Qingcheng's arms. Lu Qingcheng held him, as if she possessed everything in the world. Neither of them spoke, they simply embraced tightly, and soon, they kissed intimately. Then, they lay down on the lush green grass, still kissing passionately, neither wanting to let go of the other.

They kissed for an unknown amount of time before reluctantly parting. Lu Qingcheng stroked her beloved's flushed cheeks, couldn't resist kissing him again, and panted, "You rascal, if I hadn't come looking for you, were you planning to hide here and never go back?"

Kiyomi Tsuki looked at him, her heart aching, and said, "You seem to have lost a lot of weight."

“I can’t eat all day, of course I’ll lose weight.” Lu Qingcheng looked her up and down and said resentfully, “But you don’t seem to have changed at all.”

Kiyomi Tsuki blushed and said, "Well, the more annoyed I am, the more I eat. So, I haven't lost any weight at all, so please don't be angry. If you want me to lose weight, I'll just skip a day of eating."

Lu Qingcheng retorted, "Nonsense! You'll get sick if you go hungry for a day. What have you decided? Tell me now."

Kiyomi Tsuki's gaze began to wander, and she stammered, "Um, I'm so hot today."

"See the moon?" Lu Qingcheng threatened.

"Alright." Qingjian Yue said softly, "I've been thinking about it, and I feel... how's the trial of Hong Wantong going?"

“You don’t need to worry about Hong Wantong’s case. In short, he can no longer threaten me.” Lu Qingcheng pinched his chin and lifted him up, forcing him to look at her. “Tell me, have you made up your mind to marry me?”

“I’m used to being free and unrestrained. If, if, anyway, this won’t work.” Kiyomi Tsuki broke free from his hand and cried out in annoyance, “I’ll be miserable.”

Lu Qingcheng's expression changed drastically. "Is this a rejection?"

Qingjian Yue said in annoyance, "I'm a man, how can I marry you? Do you want me to dress as a woman for the rest of my life?"

Lu Qingcheng was furious. "Are you trying to drive me crazy?"

Kiyomi Tsuki lowered her head. "I have no choice."

"I want you now."

Lu Qingcheng pinned Qing Jianyue down and reached out to tear at his clothes.

Unexpectedly, Qing Jianyue did not struggle. She simply turned her face away and said bitterly, "Lu Qingcheng, it's no use. You have my body, but not my heart. What's the use? I will leave you sooner or later. You should know that no one can force me to change."

Lu Qingcheng's hand trembled, stopping his attempt to pull at his clothes. He glared at him angrily, but quickly, his anger was replaced by sorrow. He released him, got up from the ground, but fell again due to the pain. Qing Jianyue hurriedly crawled to his side to help him up, but was pushed away. He got up and walked away without even looking at him.

Kiyomi Tsuki's heart pounded wildly with fear, and she followed him in a panic.

Lu Qingcheng suddenly stopped, but didn't turn around. "Do you love me?"

His voice was filled with pain, which made Kiyomi Tsuki also shed tears.

"I love you," he admitted.

"Even if you love me, will you still reject me?" Lu Qingcheng pleaded as if she were dying, "Have you made up your mind? You won't go back on your word?"

The tears flowed even more fiercely, and Kiyomi Tsuki couldn't utter a single word.

"I don't understand, what is it that makes you reject me? You love me. Even without words, I can feel it; your love for me is unmatched by anyone else. So why are you rejecting me?" Lu Qingcheng's tone suddenly turned extremely stern. "Is it because of your background or your family feud?"

Kiyomi Tsuki's expression changed drastically.

Lu Qingcheng still didn't turn around. "Behind the light lies darkness. Jianyue, is the darkness in your heart, which you've hidden so deeply, still impossible to dispel?"

Kiyomi Tsuki's lips trembled.

"No matter how high or far a bird flies, it will always fly back to its nest when it flies out in the morning and when the sun sets in the evening. Jianyue, do you know? I am your nest."

After Lu Qingcheng finished speaking, she rushed off like a storm, grabbed the flame, mounted her horse, and rode away with lightning speed.

His departure felt as if a large chunk had been ripped from Qing Jianyue's heart by a knife. He burst into tears, crying out, "Qingcheng, Qingcheng, Qingcheng..."

The wind carried his voice as it chased after the rushing figure, but the person, blinded by grief, could hear nothing, like the Yellow River flowing a thousand miles.

Kiyomi Tsuki sat down on the ground, tears streaming down her face.

Four days later at noon, the city gates of Lujiabao slowly opened, and dozens of iron cavalrymen galloped in like lightning. The lead horse, a magnificent white steed, reared up and neighed. Lin Feng stretched out his hand and grabbed it firmly. The white horse neighed angrily and fiercely raised its hooves, trying to kick over the man who dared to grab it.

"Flying Clouds, be quiet."

The command silenced the white horse. Qing Jian Yue leaped off, placing the white fox in his arms on the ground. Fei Yun then came over and affectionately kissed his cheek. Qing Jian Yue embraced his beloved horse and gently stroked it. "Second Lord Lin, are you fully recovered?"

Lin Feng smiled and said, "Thank you for asking, young master. I am already well."

Kiyoshitsuki was taken aback, thinking to himself: Subordinate?