At this moment, with no one watching, the girl finally exposed her entire self to the world.
The mottled scars, one after another, intertwined and entwined, were like shackles of sin binding a tormented soul.
Then, step by step, without hesitation, she walked into the sea, letting the icy water wash over her calves, thighs, upper body, and neck...
The girl smiled, a smile of relief.
She thought of Zhao Xu, with that healing smile, who believed that everything in the world was beautiful, and was naively simple.
Just like my past self.
Unlike Zhao Xu, she was forced to experience the filth of the world, which also tainted her.
She couldn't accept herself like this, so she chose death.
For her, death was the only true relief.
The seawater washed over my head, reducing the amount of air in my lungs and intensifying the feeling of suffocation.
Just as the girl was about to drown in the sea, her hand was firmly grabbed and she was pulled out of the water!
She coughed and saw Zhao Xu's face clearly. The young man was holding her and trying to pull her to the shore with his comical doggy-paddle swimming style.
"Let me go!" Chen Yuhan finally broke down, shouting, "Zhao Xu, let me go!"
"I'm here today to die! That story wasn't a lie! The girl in the story is me!"
“I was sold to the mountains and tormented by that old geezer for a year. I was pregnant and had an abortion. I am not as clean as you see me. I was filthy long ago. My friends, relatives and even neighbors are talking about my experience!”
I hate the look of pity they give me! I hate their attention to my wounds! This world is hell to me! I don't want to go back to hell!
She cried out loudly, "Let me go! I want to die! Let me die!"
The slender arms pounded on Zhao Xu's shoulders and back, but the young man didn't utter a sound, firmly pulling her up and down in the waves.
Try your best to swim to the shore.
Once they reached the shore, the girl was exhausted from hitting and crying, and like a dead fish, she let Zhao Xu place her on the beach.
Zhao Xu took off his clothes and wrapped them tightly around Chen Yuhan.
Then he used his finger to write the name Chen Yuhan in the sand.
As if performing some kind of ritual, Zhao Xu wrote the girl's name over and over again, letting each name surround Chen Yuhan.
Then he knelt on the ground, facing the sea, and shouted, "Ah—"
Because he was mute, he couldn't make loud noises, and his voice sounded hoarse and unpleasant.
But he kept shouting it over and over again, and he held Chen Yuhan's hand, making her shout it with him.
Chen Yuhan shook off his hand, but he grabbed it again. She shook it off, but he grabbed it again, until she finally stopped struggling.
"What are you doing..." Tears streamed down the girl's face, and she choked back sobs, "Zhao Xu, what are you doing..."
"You know me, I've wanted to die for a long time..."
"You haven't experienced what I've been through, so why should I live? Why should you save me...?"
But Zhao Xu acted as if he couldn't hear her, and kept gesturing for her to shout at the sea like he did.
Chen Yuhan gritted her teeth, but finally couldn't resist him and shouted it out.
"ah--"
She clenched her fists tightly and shouted as hard as she could, as if she wanted to make her throat hoarse.
After the first sound, it got much better.
She and Zhao Xu shouted and yelled frantically.
Suddenly, a wave crashed in, and Zhao Xu grabbed Chen Yuhan, lay down on the ground, and covered the crookedly written name of Chen Yuhan that he was writing.
Once the seawater recedes, the names on the ground remain intact thanks to their protection.
Zhao Xu pointed at the name and made a few "ah ah" sounds, then grabbed Chen Yuhan's hand and shouted towards the sea again.
This time, they summoned the sunrise.
The darkness before dawn will give way to the light that illuminates everything.
The red sun rose slowly from the sea, blurring the boundary between the sea and the sky.
The pitch-black seawater was tinged with a golden hue, as if it had been coated with a layer of Buddha's light, washing away all impurities and revealing a dazzling beauty.
Chen Yuhan stared blankly at the rising sun for a long, long time…
Suddenly, his knees buckled, he collapsed to the ground, and burst into tears.
Like a newborn baby, with snot and tears streaming down his face, he knelt on the beach, his back arched, wailing loudly.
Zhao Xu sat down beside Chen Yuhan, quietly and carefully watching over the fragile girl.
Later, Chen Yuhan's parents came to her side, hugged her and cried. Their hair had turned much whiter in the past five years, making them look much older than their peers.
Chen Yuhan said that Zhao Xu had saved her, and the two elders thanked her profusely. However, when Zhao Xu was receiving their thanks, everything went black and he fainted.
It was only then that Chen Yuhan learned that Zhao Xu had a terminal illness and that his life was already on a countdown.
Unlike her, Zhao Xu remained happy even knowing the outcome.
Moreover, they would travel alone to coastal cities to pursue their dreams, just to see this vast and beautiful sea.
Look at that rising sun that splits the sea and sky, dispelling all darkness.
While Zhao Xu's situation caused her grief and sadness, it also gradually made her realize the meaning of life.
It's to see that beautiful sunrise again. It's to taste that delicious food again. It's to feel that cool breeze again, and to see that heartwarming smile again.
This world...
There are still so many wonderful things she hasn't seen.
If I were to die like this...
How could I accept this?
The film ends a year later, at dawn, when Chen Yuhan returns to the beach with a bouquet of flowers and a university acceptance letter in her hand.
She unfolded the paper and read the words on it carefully, one by one: "Dear Chen Yuhan, congratulations..."
After she finished reading, she whispered again, "Zhao Xu, did you hear that?"
"I'm trying my best to live, and I'm trying my best to live, including your share!"
She raised the flowers in her hand, welcoming the sunrise over the beach, and shouted, "Zhao Xu—"
Did you hear that?
"I'm alive……"
"Strive to live."
Chapter 21
Died for the villain for the ninth time (21)
As the movie ended and the music started, the last four words remaining on the dark screen were "Strive to live".
Qin Junyang finished reading quietly and, unusually, remained silent for a while.
He muttered, "Humans are amazing."
"Even though she was so physically and emotionally fragile, she was still able to persevere and change herself because of a belief."
"Li Wan probably tried to get out of her negative emotions because she was influenced by Zhao Xu."
He clapped his hands and sincerely praised Yu Tang, "Tangtang, your acting is really good. When I was watching just now, I thought there was really a Zhao Xu."
Yu Tang rarely heard Qin Junyang praise someone, so he smiled, rubbed the little boy's head, and said, "Thank you..."
"But!" Unexpectedly, Qin Junyang changed his tone, biting Yu Tang's finger that was scratching his head, and looked at him angrily, saying, "You held Chen Yuhan's hand and hugged her inside!"
And you could see her completely naked! You even dragged her swimming in the sea for a long time!
Xiao Jin clapped her hands gleefully: [Hahaha, I'm dying of laughter! He really is a jealous king!]
Yu Tang explained, "Meimei, this is just acting."
"Acting won't do either!" Qin Junyang opened his arms to Yu Tang and shouted, "It won't do with me! I'm uncomfortable! I'm unhappy! I want a hug too!"
Yu Tang was amused by his childish appearance. He nodded and opened his arms: "Okay, I'll let you hug me as much as you want, alright?"
The next moment, he was tackled to the carpet in the screening room by the enlarged Qin Junyang. The young man in ancient costume hugged him tightly like a large dog, rubbing against him.
The long hair made Yu Tang's neck itch.
Then I felt something cool touching my ears and neck.
Very soft...
"Tangtang, do you know?" A slightly hoarse voice came from beside my ear: "You smell especially sweet, and your blood is very attractive to me."
But I know that my feelings for you now are not based on these external things.
"I long to touch you more deeply, I think you can only belong to me, and I am jealous of everyone who acts with you."
Even to anyone you're talking to, I want to stand proudly beside you and declare to the whole world that you are my lover, the person I, Qin Junyang, love the most..."
As he spoke, his kiss traveled up Yu Tang's cheek, sealing Yu Tang's lips with a passionate kiss.
Cool yet warm.
They conquered cities and territories along the way, only to suddenly stop just as they were about to lose control.
"What's wrong?" Although Yu Tang felt cold all over, he didn't care about the discomfort.
He still quite liked Qin Junyang, who took the initiative to admit his feelings for him.
Qin Junyang held him tightly, his robes scattered around them, and in the dimly lit screening room, the atmosphere was somewhat heavy.
It was probably something that was being strongly restrained.
"No..." Qin Junyang replied, "We'll continue when I find a way to become human again."
I don't want to hurt you.