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Chapitre 177

But every time I was in a critical moment, my cousin would appear in front of me as if he had fallen from the sky, viciously knocking away the man who was lying on top of me, and staring at me with a cold look as I smiled smugly.

"Liu Rongyue, you're so lewd!" He gritted his teeth, his eyes flashing with a fierce light, as if he wanted to tear me apart.

Lewd? Ha! Even if you are lewd, you forced it upon yourself!

"Yue, do you still remember the first time we met? Ha, your arrogant and overbearing manner really made my teeth itch with anger!" Holding a wine jar, Chu Xuyao looked at me with blurry eyes, his strong palm roughly ruffling my hair.

I frowned and turned my face away, instinctively wanting to avoid the topic of that woman.

"Moon, do you love me? Even just a little bit of liking would be enough."

"Heh, actually, I know you hate me even without me saying it, and you wish you could stay far away from me and never see me again."

"I've never understood what's so good about Dongfang Yao, what's so good about Tuoba Chen, and what's so bad about me? Why have you never even seen me? Why?"

"Perhaps fate is something that can be encountered but not sought! Moon, are we destined to be together but not to stay together?"

"But why am I so damn pathetic! I know perfectly well that your heart isn't with me, yet I still shamelessly cling to you!"

"Do you know? There are far more beautiful women in the world than you. Just look at the beauties in my harem, aren't they all stunningly beautiful?"

"But why do I insist on clinging to you? Is it really true that what you can't have is always the best?"

"moon……"

"moon……"

As I watched Chu Xuyao talking to himself, seeing the deep sorrow and pain he inadvertently revealed, and listening to his heartfelt confession, I suddenly felt so pitiful.

Having lived this life, I don't even have anyone who loves me. I stand alone in this world, never having experienced the feeling of being loved. Isn't that pathetic and tragic?

Beyond my jealousy and resentment, I felt a deep envy for that woman...

I longed to experience what it felt like to be loved, so that night, like a cat in Anshun, I nestled quietly in the arms of the man heartbroken over love, listening to the steady and powerful beating of his heart, feeling his strong arms holding me tightly. At that moment, I suddenly had a strange feeling that I, too, was being cared for...

A fleeting moment of emotion gave me the desire to settle down, a feeling that had previously made me despondent.

put all one's eggs in one basket.

I drank half a bowl of the top-grade Yin-Yang Harmony Soup in one gulp, then carried the remaining half bowl to my cousin's bedroom and presented the soup to him...

Because of its potent effects, this medicine can only be used once in a lifetime...

Besides stimulating sexual desire, another important function of this soup is that it guarantees conception after intercourse...

With urgent matters at the border, my cousin left in a hurry for the Imperial Study without even having a bowl of soup…

Dongfang Yao arrived and, by some twist of fate, drank the soup I had prepared for my cousin...

Two intertwined limbs, a mindless union, yet they shed countless bitter tears...

Cousin, we missed our only chance...

Stroking my pale cheek, Dongfang Yao seemed dazed, as if she could see another soul through me. After a long while, her eyes cleared, and she shook her head with a bitter smile: "In the end, it's not her..."

It's her! It's her again! You men are all so pathetic! Is she the only woman in the world? Can't you live without her?!

He dressed himself, stood up, and looked down at me, who had a blank expression on my face: "Forget about today. It's good for you and for me." With that, he turned and left without the slightest hesitation.

What is this? What is this?!

ah!!!!

Dongfang Yao! You ruined my plans, and I will never let you get away with this!

A mad flame burned in my eyes. At that moment, I thought, if possible, I wanted to destroy the entire world…

One infatuation ends, and Dongfang Yao is once again driven mad.

Dragging the mentally challenged Dongfang Yao along, with the help of the guard commander who was under the influence of Gu, we left the imperial city, thus beginning my life of wandering.

I don't know where I'm going, or where I'll stop. I only know that I have to keep walking, to leave that place that broke my heart...

Insults, beatings, threats, abuse—all sorts of vile methods were used against Dongfang Yao. Watching him squat on the ground begging for mercy like a puppy, I felt no pleasure whatsoever. Instead, I became increasingly irritable and my heart grew increasingly desolate.

I dropped the whip, ignored Dongfang Yao cowering in the corner, went outside, and slumped down the wall in despair, burying my face in my hands. An indescribable despair slowly crept over me...

Seeing the oily soup on the table, my stomach suddenly churned. My face paled, and I looked at my abdomen, instantly realizing—I was pregnant.

I did consider aborting the child, but just thinking about how that woman would react when she came back and saw the baby made me excited. Every part of my body seemed to be screaming that I wanted to keep the child and embarrass that woman!

But this child is a thorn in my side! I hate him, I despise him, and I wish I could crush him to death!

I transferred my resentment to Dongfang Yao again!

If I'm not happy, he can't be happy either!

The days passed by in a daze, the sky of my life was black day and night, the colorless days were dull and oppressive. If it weren't for wanting to give birth to the child to deal a heavy blow to that woman, I probably wouldn't have been able to hold on and would have already given this body to that woman!

"Who exactly are you?" When a red-eyed man stared at me with sharp, bloodshot eyes, I trembled with fear and almost fainted on the spot.

"Demon, demon, monster!" I screamed, clutching my head and turning pale.

He stared at me with a gloomy expression and narrowed his eyes for a long time, then sighed in disappointment: "It seems he was telling the truth..."

With a swift movement, he grabbed me and tucked me under his arm.

"What are you doing?! Let me go!"