She didn't look at him once more from beginning to end.
Actually, ending it this way is good. Neither of us was too deeply involved, so it's a clean and efficient way to extricate ourselves now.
Qu Yun thought this, but her feet wouldn't obey her commands, and she stood in the grove outside Li Youran's dormitory.
He didn't know what he was waiting for; he just wanted to stand there and see that woman one more time.
An hour later, Li Youran came out with a lunchbox and stood there, looking at him with a puzzled expression.
Qu Yun remembered her from five days ago.
Li Youran, her face adorned with swaying leaves, her smile radiant and captivating, her eyes filled with nothing but his.
He misses her.
I walked up to her, fell silent to the point of no return, finally cleared my throat, and found a topic: "When are you going to take the books you left at my house?"
Li Youran's reaction rekindled his hope.
She doesn't know anything yet.
"Have you met another woman these past few days, and that's why you want to break up with me? Let me tell you, don't even think about it! If you dare to even consider that, I'll... burn your house down!"
Her eyes were wide open, her nostrils flared, and her expression was excited and serious.
It's entirely a possessive stance.
Possession of him.
However, Qu Yun was willing to do it.
After the crisis was over, Qu Yun bought her a cell phone and insisted that she keep it on at all times—he hated the feeling of losing track of her.
Li Youran hasn't changed; she's still the same as before, always clinging to him and wanting to snuggle against his chest.
Qu Yun remained unchanged; he was always indifferent to her, partly due to his personality, and partly because he enjoyed seeing her expression of both hatred and love after she was criticized.
It was as if she couldn't resist the urge to pounce on him and bite his neck, but when it came time to do it, she couldn't bear to.
Before long, Li Youran began to pry into his past, into things he didn't want to recall.
About Gu Chengyuan, about Tang Yongzi, about that cat.
Qu Yun always adopted an evasive attitude, which even made her feel unhappy.
Fortunately, Li Youran then focused her attention on preparing for the CET-6 (College English Test Band 6). She studied very hard, even to the point of hanging her head from the rafters and pricking her thigh with an awl.
All of this was because, after passing the test, she had to make a demand of herself.
Looking at the dark circles under her eyes during that period, Qu Yun became somewhat wary—given how serious she was, this request probably wouldn't be easy to fulfill.
"I want you to say it yourself... that you love me, and that you will never leave me."
Li Youran buried her face in his shoulder and said those words.
It's a very simple request; all he has to do is say it.
But Qu Yun couldn't bring herself to say it.
Because there are still many unresolved issues between them.
Qu Yun never makes promises lightly, because to him, a promise is something that should be fulfilled with his life.
He is not qualified to say those words now.
He refused to speak, which angered Li Youran, who stormed out of the room.
But just like countless times before, Li Youran's anger quickly subsided.
She was never truly angry with him, and never put him in a difficult position.
On the riverside, disregarding the stares of onlookers, she bravely shouted her heart out to the river.
"Qu Yun, I love you, I will never leave you!!!"
Her nose was red from the cold, making her look very delicate, but her voice was unusually firm.
He was so important to her.
And she felt the same way about him, didn't she?
The darkest day of Qu Yun's life was his birthday.
On that day, he was betrayed and killed his beloved pet with his own hands.
From then on, that day every year became a day he didn't want to remember.
He didn't want to talk about it.
However, Li Youran, who was always obedient to her, insisted on getting to the bottom of things.
How could he explain that his birthday was the day his own brother hurt him?
Qu Yun was in a bad mood and spoke harshly, so Li Youran left in a huff.
This time, Li Youran must have been genuinely angry, because she kept coming to see him for several days in a row.
On that day, Qu Yun drank alcohol.